Its My Turn to Cry

Chapter 18: Honeymoon (Finally!)

JENNY:

Warm rays of the sun starts to heat up the surroundings. Same like what we are now, this guy in front of me seems to burst out in a minute with its heating anger he felt inside all this time.

We were at the beach side watching the wide ocean as it slowly hit the shore with its gentle waves. Silence enveloped us and the sound of waves and gushing of the wind was the only seemed audible. I know he was just controlling his self, I can see it through his eyes as he shot me with his death glares.

Like the waves, his chest rise and fall as he heaved and sighed deeply and after a minute, he finally face me and spoke.

“Why are you with him?”

I panicked the moment he uttered those words, the one I'm hoping not to answer nor hear. Though he may seem calm as he say it, it is clearly written on his face that he silently curse me through his inner thought. I drop my gaze and play with my fingers to at least ease myself from panicking.

“How long have you known that guy? Are you with him yesterday?” he ask again, and this time I can sense that he’s already mad as he utter each word within his gritted teeth.

“I-I’m sorry..I-I was just-“

“Enough!!” he blurted out with rage. I jump in surprise and close my eyes to control myself from trembling. I am about to cry now.

“You know what? I was like a mad man looking for his lost wife all over the hotel! I was out for about five minutes just to borrow that damn bicycle and now I-" he paused and sighed deeply as he continued.

“I saw you flirting with the other man.” He said as he glared at me.

I was shocked, mad, angry, as I heard him say that word. Flirt? Was that considered flirting? Well, yeah! I go out with some other guy but that flirting thing never hit my mind.

I can’t take it anymore. I feel like I was about to explode and yes, I have to make this one out.

“Flirt? Did you just say I was flirting with him? Should I be the one to be mad? Since I always woke up alone in the room, clueless of where the hell my husband goes early in the morning!!” I blurted out in rage with my tears pouring out non-stop. He let out an empty chuckle and yank his hair in frustration before voicing out his side.

“So, are you saying it was my fault? I am your husband Jenny and you have to follow what I say. I know what’s good for both of us so you must know your place in this relationship!” he stated firmly as he jab his index finger towards me.

“Oh! Did I forget about that!? Yes you are my husband and we are married, but for heaven’s sake! I never feel that way towards you. You just take me for granted and never thinks of my feelings. For your information Mr. Oh Sehun, we are married but you don't own my life!” I shot back. He curl his fists and turn his back against me before he finally loses his temper.

“You’re right! I never own your life, and yes, we are married but by papers, not by heart. So yeah, you can do what you want, and I don’t care even if it kills you! After all we were just set up to this kind of sh*t. So go on and flirt with other guy, because that’s what you’re good at right?” he said and let out an empty chuckle which tends to insult me and so I slap him hard on the face and walk out.

I run 'till my knees felt numb and almost lose my breath. I pant hard and take a break then slump myself on the grassy ground were small bits of ice starts to melt. That adds up to the cold that crept through my entire body.

I tilted my head and face the wide ocean with the burning sun above it reflects its blinding light to the crystal like waters. I want to run and drown myself through it to ease this stinging pain that slowly kills me inside.