SPEAK OUT IN POETRY

I Lost You

I was lonely, I felt incomplete...
You showed up and completed me.
I was sad, I felt unloved...
You showed up and loved me.
I was cold, I felt vulnerable...
You showed up and secured me in your arms.
You engulfed me in a kind of love that knew no bounds.
You made me realize how it felt to be loved.
For a minute, I knew I had found what I had been looking for.

It saddens me, that the happy bubble that we were in didn't last long.
Insecurities and mistakes from the past came rushing in, burst the bubble and we fell into the deep abyss of misunderstandings.
Soon everything went downhill, our happiness, our love, Us.
What hurts the most is the fact that I am to blame.
I let my fears dictate my decisions, I let my insecurities crowd my judgment.
And just like that, I lost everything, I lost you.
I thought I was doing the right thing but now I sit here, drowning in my thoughts...
I can't help but beat myself up for letting you slip so easily from my grasp...
I couldn't be courageous enough to stand up to my fears...
I couldn't break down my walls for you.
What breaks my heart more is that while I lost you, I loved you and I still love you.
But...