UN-RAVEL : The inner strength.....

UN-RAVEL 5.... MY OWN SHARE OF DOUBTS....

UN-RAVEL 5....

MY OWN SHARE OF DOUBTS....

ZAMIRA'S P.O.V.

Ooh ooh ooh
 Ooh ooh ooh

 Can you feel me
 When I think about you?
 With every breath I take
 Every minute
 No matter what I do

 My world is an empty place
 Like I've been wandering the desert
 For a thousand days (oh)
 Don't know if it's a mirage
 But I always see your face, baby

I'm missing you so much
Can't help it, I'm in love
A day without you is like a year without rain
I need you by my side
Don't know how I'll survive
A day without you is like a year without rain (oh, whoa)
Whoa, oh, whoa

I wake up listening to Salena Gomez. Well. Why is she singing? That too, here.

Oh! Fish!

Where is my mobile?

I pick the pillows, uphold the sheets, trip and dig but where the hell is Gomez singing from. I mean my alarm buzzing from.

Why am I vibrating?

Shit!!!

My cell. I pick it up from under me and switch the alarms off and all those that follow. Well only three more. I kinda don't have a very good sleep, so I am an early riser. I look around thinking about all the shopping bags that I had sprawled on the sofa from previous day's shopping spree.

But nothing.

I hold out my phone and open the screen.

SATURDAY.

Hmm....

Shit.

A dream.

Everything seemed so surreal.

No actually it was surreal, in my dreams.

Hell!

I huff repeatedly trying to push back the tears that had formed in my eyes. I so wish my father would be 1% of the father in my dream.

But wonders need to happen for him to even acknowledge my presence. Now I seriously doubt, if he would even care while I am dying or he would be better of that way. I believe he would be better of that way. Without me. Precisely.

I look at the time on my cell's screen.

3:30 am.

What the hell?

Urgh....

I pat my head remembering why I had put an early alarm. It was for some work which has now been entirely screwed up as I have no capacity in me. I am entirely drained out. WOW! I would be the world's first creature who is quite drained out early in the morning after just waking up from sleep. Well! I was planning to make some cupcakes for Dai ma as she is going to her sister's place for two weeks most probably, as her niece is getting married. But every single cell of my body is shouting for energy which I really don't have. I push my head on pillow feeling totally screwed up, trying my best to contain may tears.

Thrr.... Krrrrr....

What the hell?

I jump from my pillow and stabilise myself in a very uncomfortable position.

Are there some kind of burglars in the house. Shit! I jump out of my bed slip into my slippers and search for some sort of rod or something.

Holy shit! The sort of person I am, I have nothing accept for books.
Hell! Zamira, will you throw books at the burglars. Urgh.... I am too annoying. I hear a little more commotion downstairs so I rush out of the room and outside I find a huge metal vase. I try picking it up but I myself stumble. Oh God! This is so heavy. Please help me man.