Imagine If

33

Eleven's POV

Its 1 o'clock in the midnight and Alexane called me just say happy birthday. Well thats what I thought, I thought that she would just greet me but she told me to meet with Hux.

"Ayoko"

"Ano ka ba? Akala ko ba gusto mo mag sorry? Gusto mo ba paabutin ng new year yang tampuhan niyo?" Sabi ni Alexane sa kabilang linya

"Eh kasi natatakot nga ako" sagot ko naman

"Babe, walang mangyayare kung matatakot ka! Atsaka hindi rin kasi ako pwede bukas, may business trip si papa at isasama niya ako"

"Ano ba yan, birthday na birthday ko tapos wala ka pa? Tapos si papa at si mama wala din bukas. Paano yan?"

"Kaya nga, why don't you spend it with Alystra? She's your bestfriend naman at para maayos na din kayo. I know you miss her" sabi ni Alexane

"I don't know Alexane, I'll just text you tomorrow on what I think about this. I'm tired" I said

"Anong tired ka dyan? Eh nakahiga ka lang buong araw dyan eh!"

"Ops love you! Bye!" I said and hung up

I smiled at the thought that Alexane really cares about me and Hux. She also told me that they talked earlier. I know that it isn't Hux's idea to talk to me and that its Alexane's. I know na natatakot din si Hux na humarap sa akin.

I'm also afraid of seeing her again. Hindi ko alam kung anong sasabihin ko sa kanya. Hindi ko alam kung paano ako magsosorry. Sobrang selfish ko kasi at inisip ko muna ang sarili ko bago ang feelings niya. Nagalit ako agad eh, and thats my fault.

I have so many questions in my head that I wanted to ask. I need answers but I'm afraid, because sometimes truth can destroy us.

Mas masarap mapakinggan ang mga kasinungalingan. But can you handle the fact that everything you know might be just a lie?

Because as time pass by, I'm realising that I'm faced by a lie. Its like you're already dead.

Oh well, that sums up my existential crisis.

Nakatulog ako na ako after overthinking everything in my life at kung anong gagawin kapag nakaharap ko na si Hux.

I woke up because of the sound of my alarm. Nagtoothbrush ako at kumuha ng makakain.

I opened my phone and I was bombarded by so many msg. But I only opened one, the one from Hux.

From: BFriend Huxley

  Hey, it has been a while. I don't want to ruin your day but I also wanted to just wish you a happy birthday. I'll always be here.

I smiled before texting her back.

To: BFriend Huxley

Thanks alot. Can we hangout today?

I sended her that text and I'm panicking about what she will respond. Sana mag yes siya.

Nakaligo na ako at nakabihis na ako, nakapagplantsa na ako at wala pa rin siyang reply.

I was about to exit my room but then she called.

"Hello?"

"Uy sorry Leven ngayon ko lang nakita yung message mo, natulog kasi ulit ako" sabi niya

"Haha ano ka ba? Okay lang naman yun. So ano game ka ba?" I asked

"Sino ba kasama?"

"Tayo lang dalawa"

"Huh? Bakit? Wala si Alexane?" She asked