Snake[Izaya X Reader]

In-between

Darkness

Emptiness

Coldness

Less than before, yet more than before

Neverending loop

Is the pulse of the hear the only thing resonating in your ears

Is your mind petrified so much by fear that you can't control all of thoughts and pick one particular to focus on it

Ivan, Jean, Troy, Nick; family.

"brother..."

"why did you leave me?"

No sun, only everlasting dimness. Soft glowing light from the sky, gray atmosphere, blue feelings.  

Despondency, any moment all hope will be lost.  

Suffocation. Illness. Filth.  

On the ground, there are bodies.

Distorted faces, twisted shapes of people, which you once knew. Covered by blood and dirt, their bodies are broken, shattered. 

"I-Ivan?"

"Jean-?"

"Troy..."

At the end, the last one.

Dark hair, tanned skin. Full lips, dark eyes, which were once full of life.

"Nick-" intense energy that he once radiated is all gone, there's only freezing coldness, heavy burden of guilt and devastating sorrow.

"No...no...no..."

Look what you have done.

"Nick..."

It's all your fault.

"don't leave..."

Murderer.

"no no no!"

It was the right thing to do

"Nick!"

Traitor.

"Nick!!"

Revenge.

"Look at yourself!"

"Nick! you're wasting your life, you're wasting yourself"

"Alcohol, drugs, women, gambling"

"is this what you're taking to the grave?"

"no, [f/n]"

"I promise, I'll do the right thing, for my family"

"Nick...your family is long gone..."

"Yes...I lost family..:" "but ey...I got a new one..."

"wake up!" you grab the body and shake his shoulder.

"Nick wake up!" desperately you call for him, but it seems even your own echoes are eaten by silence.

"I'm sorry"

"I'm sorry..."

"I'm sorry!" wet pillow against your cheek, tears running down your face. You open eyes, it was a dream, a dreadful nightmare.