In love with my assassin

I feel... safe around him..

Karkat's pov

Fuck rain and fuck Earth and fuck emotions. I called Dave out of all people to help me out. Yet again, we met like two days ago and I want to get to know him better but still! My thoughts were cut off by a knock on my bedroom door. I open it slightly blanket over my head. "Hello?" I look up to see a pair of shades and worried eyebrows. I open it wider then run back to my bed.

"You still scared?" I shake my head furiously. "Awe, come here." He comes over and wraps his arms around me. I snuggle into his chest some more purrs coming from the back of my throat. He slowly pet my hair as another clash of thunder came. I jumped a bit but Dave grabbed me and pulled me back.

"Thanks for this" I mumbled it softly but enough for both of us to hear it.

"No problem" His voice cracked a bit at the end which caused me to giggle a bit with a soft rare smile. A small giggle came from him as well sticking his head into my hair. "Soft" Is all I heard then a few more hours of silence. After an hour or two of silence and the storm calming down I closed my eyes and drifted to sleep.

(Yo, yo! A time skip! Whooooo~)

I carefully open my eyes to be blinded by the sun. I roll over to be face to chest with Dave. Not that I didn't mind it's just on the fact that I have to pee. I grab a pillow before snuggling into his chest more then slipping out of his grasp quick to replace me with the pillow. He groans before flipping over with the pillow in his grasp.

I exit my room to meet the cold, harsh, tile floors. Slowly tip-toeing away then full on running to the bathroom by Kankri's room. Doing my do obviously I check myself in the mirror becoming upset with my image. I take the closest thing to me and shatter the mirror. It didn't make much noise just a shatter. No one woke up so I grabbed three plastic bags, put them around my hand and started to put them into the trashcan to be later thrown out.

A small goran could be heard as the bathroom door opens. I opened it due to the fact that the door is broken and now locks from the outside every time you close it. Thanks Gamzee. Again I see a sleepy Strider with his shade on drag his feet to the balcony of the stairs and just sit there with his legs through the bars. "You okay" His face turns towards me with a small nod as I begin to walk over to him, sitting next to him but legs crossed. Silence was all that was heard between both of us. "Do you ever look over the edge of something like this and just jumping? Not knowing if you will break something or die."

"The hell man? You okay or some shit? That's hella creepy bro." I shrug at his response and look at him dead in the face.

"Do you" Another shake of his head.

"No, no matter what something bad would happen, you could die without fulfilling your life or break a bone and live with regret for the moment being."

"True but no one said I was happy with my life"

"How so?"

"Well, at a young age I met Terezi, the person I went to when you attacked. She wasn't blind yet, she was sweet and caring. I had the BIGGEST crush on her. I told her and then she made a big deal of it back on alternia and embarrassed me in front of everyone. I cried for days on end, I never went outside and everyone thought I died. I should've to be honest. Skip forward to when I came to "Earth". Terezi told everyone what happened years ago which started the bulling on my end. Sollux only dated me out of pity which caused me to hide away for awhile. I then started to cut. I did it so much one day that I had to go to the hospital which they dubbed me as having depression, anxiety and, what I dubbed myself as to having, trust issues." I stopped for a second taking a deep breath while tears fall down my face. "Years later it had gotten worse then I went to the hospital for the second time for the same thing then dubbed suicidal. I guess I'm the one to blame for letting this happen."

"Karkat.... You couldn't know what was going to happen."

"But I should've guessed it!" He pulled me into a hug as I cry onto his shoulder.

"If you guess through everything you're not going anywhere. People are jerks, if they are that toxic then let them go."

"But I don't wanna lose anyone!"

"I know, I know, but sometimes you have to." I nod into his shoulder looking up from the hug. He used his thumb to clear my tears that were once streaming down my face. Dave got closer and kissed my forehead. "Everything's going to be okay" He started to get up as did I. I checked my phone and it read 5:45 am. I guess we woke up early, we start to walk down stairs. Once we reach the bottom I run and jump up on the counter to grab two bowls.

"I forgot how short I am" I jump up higher to grab some dry sweet strawberries.

"You could've asked for me to grab them"

"Yeah because you're fuckin' tall"

"Six - one and a half to be exact"

"I'm five foot fuck you"

"Saucy"

"Shut up!"