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NCT|Johnny|Jumped{REQUESTED}

REQUESTED BY BangtannnShips

WARNING:
Suicide, depression and a bit graphic is in the chapter please don't read or force yourself to read if you don't like this kind of thing.
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-3rd Person POV-

She looked down from where she was standing; she was debating whether she should jump or not. Her hands were tightly held on the railing of the bridge while she leaned forward looking at the water glistening in the moonlight.

Tears streamed down her face from the events that happened earlier that day. Everything just happened at once. What happened well:

Her parents decided to get a divorce and in the end ended up hitting her, her grades are failing and her best friend has the girlfriend of his dreams making her invisible. That really hurt her, she loved him so much.

She gave everything for him. She helped him, had fun with him, comforted him and more. All she gets in return is being invisible. He knew she had depression as well but to her it seemed like he didn't care or take notice.

Even worse is that his girlfriend and her friends started bullying you so that you don't go near him.

Soon enough there were no more tears left to cry and her head was pounding. Through the pain of her head she finally came to a decision.

Her hands softened and came loose off the bar and soon the night as her shoulders are. She let the cool breeze blow threw her soft hair once more.

"DON'T DO IT!" She heard a familiar voice behind her should.

She slowly looked back too see a crying Johnny. At this point she didn't know how to feel, happiness, sadness, anger?

He slowly made his way towards her.

"Y/N d-don't do it please" his voice cracked as he continued to slowly walk towards her.

She stared at him for a second. She shook her head and one hand went down to her pocket and pulled out an envelope. She looked at it for a second and threw it at him.

"Goodbye Johnny" she said just audible for her and him to hear.

Then her arms went back to being in line with her shoulder out. Then she slowly leaned forward feeling herself fall. Johnny ran, he tried to grab her hand up he was a second to late of possibly saving her.

He couldn't bare to look. His best friend and the one he loved his whole life had now disappeared from him life. He pulled his phone out and called an ambulance. They soon came along with the police searching for her body.

It didn't take them long to find her body. Once they did they wrapped it up and took her to the hospital. He was left there on his knees crying.

The tears wouldn't stop flowing down his face. The police told him to go home and rest know that he was probably traumatised from having to see his friend commit suicide in front of him.

He walked home slowly. His eyes were red puffy and his cheeks had tear streaks but were replaced with more. They kept flowing down his face.

He arrived home. All the lights off and cold. He didn't want to turn them on or the heater. He went straight up to his room he sat at his desk. He put his desk light on, the only light on in the house. Then he just stared at the envelope that you had thrown at him before you jumped.

He looked at it for a good fifteen minutes before he finally decided to open it. He unsealed slowly and pulled out the paper.

'Dear Johnny,
I don't know whether you'll read this or not because you know it might be invisible because I made it. Johnny I trusted you with everything I told you. I seriously thought I could keep telling you things instead of bottling it up inside. You said that I could. And that all changed when you got a girlfriend. You completely ignored me and it made me feel like I was some sort of toy that you got tired of playing of. JOHNNY I LOVED YOU SO MUCH!! I wish I could have told you but it was too late. Your happy now. I'm gone now. So that works I guess. Just have fun with your new girlfriend. I loved you so much Johnny. I trusted you but now I don't need to because. I've jumped. I'm gone.
-Y/N'

He was sobbing even harder reading the letter. So much guilt has raised inside of him. He didn't mean what he did.

"Y/N I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!! I THOUGHT YOU WOULD NEVER LOVE ME SO I TRIED TO MOVE ON BUT I IGNORED YOU TO GET OVER MY FEELINGS. I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU. I NEVER WANTED YOU TO SUFFER YET YOU DID AND NOW YOUR GONE FOREVER!! Y/N I'M SO SORRY!! Comeback please" he shouted as if she could hear him or something but she couldn't.

Now her body was being stored somewhere so it didn't decay before she was buried. Johnny couldn't stop crying. He too fell into depression. He wanted her back so bad. But for the sake of his love for her, he continued to live with the depression that has now over come him. Just so that he can live two lives that should have been separated but now he combined it with his so that she can still live on.

In his heart. Memory. And. Soul.

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First Uploaded: 13/11/2018
Edited: 16/01/2019