Lost Love

Chapter 8

Chapter 8

{Ryan}

I freeze. The news I have been afraid to hear, literally dreading the day I would have to hear it, has arrived.

My heart sinks. I feel like it’s been ripped out of my chest and thrown on the ground. My stomach is doing multiple flips. My knees start to get weak. My head is spinning.

I’ve never liked it when Taylor dated other guys, but the other boys were her high school dates. And who really gets that serious in high school? I knew they were temporary relationships. But this? This could be entirely different. 

I can feel the color getting sucked out of my face. I probably look like I’m about to pass out to Taylor, and I honestly feel like it.

Logan Adams. He’s probably the most attractive guy in Edmonton. Taylor. Taylor is dating him. I can’t compete with that. There’s just no way.

I notice Taylor looking at me. I have to force myself to say something.

“That’s...” I say, literally struggling to find the words to speak.

“Great.” I finish, hardly breathing now. 

This is the news I have feared to hear ever since I saw Taylor with Logan. This all seems wrong, like this can’t be happening.

Her face changes from worried to extremely excited.

“Really!? I knew you would be happy for me Ryan, I just knew it! Thank you Ryan!” She beams, generally happier than I thought.

Apparently this Logan guy means the world to her. I can’t be upset. Not here, not in front of her.

“Taylor that’s amazing! I know you always admired him and thought the world of him! And he’s a very talented boy, I will say that for sure!” I fake smile. Of course everything I said is true, but I don’t want to believe it.

“I know! Ryan he is absolutely amazing, words can’t even describe.” She says, sounding intoxicated by love.

I’m intoxicated by her, but her drug is someone else’s love.

And the next fifteen minutes were a living Hell for me. She talked non-stop of everything they did together. From how it all started when she dropped her books, to their lunch dates, to cuddling and watching the hockey game on Friday night. If they kissed, which I’m sure they did, she didn’t tell me. But, I wouldn’t be surprised if they did.

This is killing me. I’m so madly in love with her, and I have to stand on the sidelines, dying of desperation while I watch her fall in love with someone else.

Eventually, we walk back to her car, and I open the door for her as she gets in.

“Thank you for listening to me Ryan. That means a lot.” She smiles. “Yeah, anytime.” I say, feeling sick to my stomach again.

She nods, and smiles. I close the door, and with that, she drives away.

I stand still, petrified at everything I just heard. She’s in a relationship with Logan Adams. This is all such a shock to me, and I truly wish I had never heard any of it.

It’s burning my heart.

Depressed, I walk back to my truck and start driving home.

I get home at around 7:00, and realize I have no plans for tonight. It’s Friday night, and I don’t have any plans. I hardly ever have plans other than hanging out with the team, but I don’t have any plans tonight. I really wish I did because I want to get my mind off of stuff.