"Nda payah..!! Sy nda perlukan semua pertolongan ko!!.. sy nda perlukan rasa kasian ko..!! Just leave me alone.. Sy sedar juga ba sy ni apa..."
"Please jangan begini.. just let me be in your life.. I want to understand you.."
"Kenapa?! Nda cukup ka...
"Learning lessons is a little like reaching maturity. You're not suddenly more happy, wealthy, or powerful, but you understand the world around you better, and you're at peace with yourself. Learning life's lessons is not about making your life perfect, but about seeing life as it was meant to be." ~ Elisabeth Kubler-Ross
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Airmata sy nda berhenti mengalir nampak orang yang ada di depan sy.. Sy nda tau apa perasaan sy sekarang..
Happy?
Marah?
Bercampur-aduk..
"What are you doing here?" sy tanya dia.. Relax dia ni.. tenang ja tu muka.. bole lagi bagi senyuman.. That hooded eyes is killing me..
Kenapa misti sekarang?
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"Hi" dia bilang..
I scoffed.. "Hi?" sy tgk dia..
"That's all you can say? Hi?" sy gusuk-gusuk dahi sy..
Semaju dia pi tempat sy, selangkah tu juga sy undur.. sy nda sangka dia ada di sini.. after all this while, baru sekarang dia muncul..
Should I hate him now? I want to but I can't coz I still love him..
"James, don't.." sy halang dia dari maju p tempat sy..
"Baby, I'm sorry.." dia cuba mau dekat dan sentuh sy..
"I'm sorry I'm not around you.. I missed you.." dia bilang.. masi tangan sy tahan dia kasi jarak kami..
Shit! I missed him too, so much.. Kalo ikutkan hati, mau saja sy peluk dan cium dia tapi kenapa baru sekarang dia muncul..
"James.. I can't deal with this shit right now...." terus sy kasi tinggal dia dan direct pigi bilik sy..
"Gia, wait--" James bilang sambil bubut sy..
sy nampak c Stan ampai Melissa sana sofa di ruang tamu.. "Gabby----" dia tegur.. sy nda peduli sy terus ja melangkah..
"James? You're here!"
Terus terhenti langkah sy.. sy pusing tengok diorg dua..
"So, you guys know each other?" sy tgk c James.. "Is this a joke, James? You behind all this?"
diorang dua diam.. I scoffed again not wanting them to respond.. malas sy mau bercakap.. airmata sy terus ja mengalir.. sy pusing terus melangkah pigi bilik..
"Gia, wait----" James bilang dari belakang..
"James, can we--" Suara c Stan..
sy kasi biar ja c James.. Urgggghhhh!!! sy geram sama dia.. sy limpang di katil... sy tutup muka sy guna bantal and scream the hell out of my head..
