Her

: : Part II : :

: : Part II : :

“Hello Carson.” She whispered.

“Sienna.” You breathed. “What are you doing here?”

“I’m starting university, silly.” She shots you one of her smiles, the one that sends you into a lover’s frenzy. “What, you think that you are the only one that can get a scholarship to the best university in the country?”

“No, of course not.” You defended. “I just meant, that I thought you were going to stay close to home. Close to your brother.”

“Alex?” She questioned. “He’s fine.” She waved you off with a smile and sat down on the chair opposite him. She leant forward resting her weight onto the table. “So, what’s going on with you? What’s going on in Carson’s world?”

“Not much.”

“Really, not much that is all I get? Come on, Carson.” She whined.

You can’t resist her puppy dog eyes and you cave. You realise that keeping her at a distance is going to be hard. “Sienna, I am a english major, I don’t have a social life.” You answer honestly, and it’s true. Well, partly, you mostly just write and think about her.

“Well then, have you met anyone?” She asked.

“Yeah, I have.” You smiled. “My roommate is quite social so I have met a lot of his mates.” You don’t feel comfortable, you feel as if someone is squeezing you to the point just before being obliterated. “Have you yet?”

“I got here ten minutes ago.” Sienna laughed. “I am not that good at making friends.”

“Come on, everyone loves you.”

“Yeah, at home they only loved me because of the accident.”

“You don’t know that.”

“Yes I do.” Sienna sighed. “I am a misfit.” You want to laugh at that, she doesn’t understand what being a misfit is, she isn’t a misfit.

“Well, then just find another misfit. And be misfits together.”

“That, Carson, is why you are the writer.” You let out a breath of air, she gave you shivers. She said Carson, just the way she always has, the way that gives you Goosebumps and shudders.

You stay and talk to her for a while, asking her questions about her, and how she got to the university. Finally it was time to part ways. “I have to go, I have a class in an hour and I have to finish some writing. Will you be okay getting to your dorm and get to class?”

“I will be fine Carson, go.” Sienna laughed, and stood up. Grabbing her duffle bag that she must’ve dropped on the ground while we were talking and began to walk to the girl dorms on the opposite end of the university, you stand there for a moment, just watching her. You smile, your Sienna is here.

You have no idea what is going on.

You are happy she is here.

But you want her gone.

______

“What happened to you?” Your roommate asked once you walk into your room.

“Sienna.” You whisper, Benson looks at you from his bed and just nods, understanding. Benson understands everything, he is great like that.

“We are so screwed.” He whispered, and you walk across the room and fall onto your bed and groan. “Did you talk to her?” Benson asked after a few moments.

“Yes.”

“Do you still love her?” He asked you curiously.

“Yes.”

“Is she avoidable?”

“How do you mean?”

“She isn’t an English Major is she?”

“No she’s studying psychology.” You answer flatly.

Benson laughs. “That is helpful, I guess, after this year we are all going to need a lot of that.”

You whine into your pillow inaudibly.

“She is going to find out eventually. Maybe you should sweep her off her feet?” Benson offered and you just looked at him. “It is better that she thinks that you just start to develop feelings for her now, than her finding out that you have loved her for…well since forever.”

“Either way Alex will kill me.” You mutter.

“Yes, but maybe, just maybe, she might fall for you.”

“Maybe,” You are still wary of Benson’s plan, in fact you hate it. She deserves better, but you will never tell Benson that you think that.

“A lot of things can happen in eleven months.”

The conversation died down after that, you needed to figure out what you were going to do. You needed to know how you were going to treat her once you see her out in public. You needed a plan and so far, Benson’s sucked.