The Kissing Booth - The First Year

A shoulder to cry on - Elle

I always liked Alice and I really don't know why I didn't call her the moment I saw those damn pictures... everything could be different now. I needed to talk to her about what had happened to Joe... seeing the point of view of another girl was fundamental, after all, sometimes only girls could understand each other's heads.

"So, girl, what the hell happened with that photos and you showing up here by surprise?", She popped the question while I was thinking about how to start the conversation

"I'm glad I did not even have to get into it, did I?" I gave a nervous laugh and continued, "I really need your help, Alice..." another pause ... my heart was racing "Sharon sent the photos to Joe... well, Joe is a guy who moved to Los Angeles after Thanksgiving," she interrupted me

"I know who this guy is ... Noah told me about the kiss ... but I didn't know Sharon was his friend"

"So, you know she's Tuppen's cousin and she went to LA to spend the New Year. Me, Noah, Lee and Rachel had agreed to go to Disneyland for the fireworks, and by chance all of our friends ended up going there too, including Sharon, and as Joe is part of our class and friends with all the boys... On January 1st I went down to get breakfast for me and Noah, I wanted to surprise him and I ended up meeting Joe in the lobby. I didn't want to chat, but he started talking and there was no strange atmosphere between us anymore, so I talked to him a little bit, but he came up with a strange talk that Noah did not deserve a girl like me. At that moment I was so pissed with him that I stoped paying attention to what he was saying and did not insist that he told me the reason for that statement, I just said I had to go and went upstairs. Then on Saturday she sent those pictures to Joe and he was desperate. He talked to Lee ... who showed me the photos and I freaked out." I stopped, she was static looking at me ... but I still had to finish it "I was destroyed inside Alice, I belivied in the only thing I saw... I didn't want to talk to Noah and I was also mad at you, Will, Mike, everyone in the picture with him and the girl... you can imagine how my head was working, I was not being reasonable. We all decided to go to Malibu then, during this week ... even Joe" I just got there, I didn't want to stop now, I had to finish "The real thing is: I spent the night with him, from Tuesday to Wednesday. I needed to do this just to prove to myself that I was stronger than Noah..." now she got crazy and interrupted me again

"Elle my Gosh... Noah will be furious... first with Sharon, he doesn't know she is the responsible for taking these photos, and also with your crazy idea of ​​revenge ..."

"I know, Alice ... but let me finish it ... yesterday morning, when I woke up, I was talking to Joe and he told me that back in the first day of the year he wanted to tell me that Sharon had told him that Noah was going out with Cindy since before the holidays... the point is she never figured that Noah would tell me what happened between them. At that moment everything was clear in my mind and it was when I realized exactly what she had done ... she wanted me to believe that Noah was with Cindy, and I was so blind that I fell like an idiot in her plan... I was so desperate when I realized the shit I had made that I cried more than when I saw the pictures, I locked myself in the bathroom and didn't know what do ... I called June, said I needed to come to Boston and the rest you already know." I was crying

"Ouch Elle, I can imagine how is your head... you're really screwed with this story of sleeping with Joe ... but calm down ok, if I can, I'll help you ... and yes, I can understand how you were feeling looking at the photos, when I saw them, I did not believe it and I still told him that if it was me, I would have acted the same, but when are you planning to tell him? Because this is really very serious ..."

"I know... tomorrow he does not have training, right? I was thinking of telling him tonight. It has to be tonight. I can not sleep another day beside him with this in my head... I always told him that we had to be honest with each other. I was determined to tell him yesterday when I arrived, but I couldn't... First because when he opened the bedroom door and saw me, he almost had a heart attack, he did not believe I was there, and I was so full of his euphoria when he hugged me that I didn't think of anything else... I was missing him so much too. I'm really afraid of losing him because of my stupid attitude. "

"It's going to be a difficult conversation, but he loves you too much and I know he doesn't want to lose you either... let's hope he can get over this, because understand what you did, I don't know if he will."

We stopped talking, I kept crying and she hugged me. "Don't be sad anymore Elle... let's wait. You have to be calm to talk to him. For now, let's enjoy the training and cheer for our loves. After training we can have lunch, you'll be fine and you'll find the right time to talk to him. I want to be your maid of honor for the love of God !! "

She was so cute ... "I wish we had a wedding in a few years..." now I was laughing.

At the end of the training, the boys went to the locker room and Alice and I got for a quick walk to the park next to the field. It was a beautiful spring day, sunny, but still cold... nothing like Thanksgiving, but still a little chilly for my California skin. I was quiet, Alice understood perfectly that I needed to stay like this to calm down... my phone rang and it was Lee.

"Hey Shelly, thank you for calling me yesterday... I really appreciate your concern for me not knowing what had happened to you." He was kidding but a little annoyed, I realized.

"I'm sorry, Lee ... I arrived at 10:30pm and I didn't remember to send you a message... can you forgive me?"

"Have you told him yet?" He was worried now

"No... I didn't have time for this... I was talking to Alice while he was playing football, you know... he's training for the big game next week"

"Ah ... so you told Alice about Sharon and everything?"

"Yes ... I needed to talk to a girl, I needed another woman's opinion, and besides, she also knows Noah well ..."

"I understand ... hey, I wish I could tell you not to worry, but knowing Noah, I really don't know what to say now."

"Thanks Lee, that's all the support I needed right now ..." I said a little sad

"Don't be sad, Shelly, remember that I'm here to pick up your pieces if you need to, and I can also talk to Noah... but first you have to be honest with him."

"I know and I'm going tonight, okay?"

"Ok ... but please just send me a message saying how it was. I'm going to stay here worried about you two." And I had already realized that he was very worried

I was not going to ask, but I felt like I needed to know about Joe. "And how things turned out after I left... you know... with Joe?"

"Well, first he was really upset, but then I talked to him and explained the whole mess. He sent a message to Sharon asking her to forget his existence. He understood what happened to you and that she did everything because she wants to stay with my brother... but about the night you two spent together he was a little sad to realize that it was something that you did sort on purpose, not to feel down over what you think Noah did, kind of revenge... I think you broke his heart Shelly. "

"Ai Lee ... it was not my intention... I'll have to face it when I get back, but thanks anyway for talking to him and getting him to understand the whole Sharon's story... at least now he will not let her use him anymore. "

"He will not let her or you use him aymore..." I deserved this ...

"Yes ... I kinda used his feelings for me and I'm not proud of that... I have to go. Noah and Will are coming to meet us and we're going to have lunch. I'll send a message for you at night. I love you... kisses for Rachel. Goodbye."

We had a very nice lunch, then we went to the movies. An excellent day for couples ... but my head was still thinking about the huge and troublesome conversation we would have that night.