Broken Trust

-Chapter 01-

One

"You lit the fire, Ash"

"Sigurado ka na ba sa gagawin mo, Fierce?"

I glared at Hayley who has been asking that god-damned question for the nth time since I started packing my luggage.

"Wala ng makakapigil sakin Hayley."

"Of course! Pano nga ba kita mapipigilan? Ilang taon mong pinagplanuhan yan." Mapait ang matalim ang pagkakasabi niya rito.

Napailing na lang ako habang liniligpit ko ang gamit ko.

Hayley's being hysterical again. I know how much she hated my plan, but I'm happy that she's still by myside despite the fact that she despise everything about it.

For a couple of minutes, tahimik lang niya akong pinagmamasdan. I know she wants to say something but she's restraining herself.

"What if... Just a 'what if', okay? Hindi ko naman sinasabing magkakatotoo ito so you don't have to be mad at me or something. Fierce, what if your plan backfired. Anong gagawin mo?"

"What do you mean?"

"Uhm, you know. The usual clichè thing, fall for him and such." Paputol-putol niyang sabi na parang nag-aalangan pa kung itatanong niya talaga sakin.

"Fall in love with that bastard all-over again, Hayley? Naririnig mo ba yung sarili mo? Well, I'm sorry. I'm afraid that wouldn't be possible. I've erased the word 'Love' from my vocabulary eons ago. It takes a stupid woman to fall inlove with the same man who caused her so much pain, twice...And the last time I checked, I'm not stupid."

I've said those words with so much confidence. I'm trying to control my anger whenever he is being mentioned. Even I can taste the bitterness of my words. But that's the ugly truth. After six years of moving-on, I know that I can face him without bursting into tears like what I did when we broke up.

Ipinagpatuloy ko lang ang pagiimpake kahit na alam kong tatadtarin parin ako ng tanong nitong si Hayley.

Tumayo ako at napansin kong tumayo rin siya at sinundan ako sa kabilang kwarto. I've packed my things, just the necessary ones though. I've left my things in Cyrea anyway or kung may kailangan ako, I can buy them anytime.

Mayaman ako. Oo, mayaman ako at kaya kong ipangalandakan 'yon sa buong mundo. Hindi ko lang maintindihan yung ibang tao kung bakit kailangan pa nilang magka-humble pag sinasabihang Mayaman sila. O, e ano ngayon kung self-proclaimed mayaman ako? Wala naman akong pakialam sa sasabihin ng ibang tao. Hindi ko naman sila kailangang i-please kasi unang-una, hindi ako pinanganak para magustuhan nila. Kasi, kung sila lang naman ang papakinggan ko, wala ng mangyayari sa buhay ko kasi sa lahat ng bagay may nasasabi sila.

"What if you fall for him? I'm just stating a possibility, Fierce. We know how much you loved him back then! I'm worried that he'll hurt you the way he did six years ago."

Napatikhim ako nung marinig ko yung sinabi niya. Pero, ipinagpatuloy ko na lang ang pag-iimpake ko.

I put all the things na kailangan kong dalhin before I closed my suitcase.

"Fall for him? Hah! Hayley, I'm not dumb enough to fall for his trap again. Like what I've said, I don't know the word love and therefore I don't know how to love. Lahat ng nahuhulog nasisira, Hayley. Especially when the person you are falling for has no intention of catching you. And that's what I'm going to do. I'll make sure that he'll fall for me, head over heels, Hayley. He broke my heart? Then I'm going to crush his into tiny little pieces."

"You're crazy, Fierce."

Bumaba na ako ng hagdan then I mouthed her, 'I know I am.'

Linagay ko na lahat ang gamit ko sasakyan. Half-hearted na sumunod si Hayley sakin. I sighed.