Please Be My New Memories | Kellic

Chapter 19 ~ The Start

"Vic! What happened!?" Kellin was practically shouting at me as he tried to keep a distance from me but was consumed by the urge to engulf me in a comforting hug. I sat frozen, shivering, crying, breathing uncontrollably in a corner of the tree house in which we had fallen asleep in. I was in the middle of a having a panic attack, the worst I had ever experienced and it was the the first time someone had been there to witness my state.

"Don't leave me.. I can't be alone.. Don't leave me.. I'm scared, I can't take it.. Don't leave me.. I'm sorry.. I'll be better this time.. Don't leave me.. I can't be alone.. Don't leave me.." I repeated over and over again in a hushed voice that it had practically become a chant. The dream I had that played in my mind had scarred me and I was scared, so scared of it being true. I still didn't know who the boy in my dream was but he loved me and he left. No matter who it is, they'll leave you and you'll be alone. That's what I believed and I'd choose death of solitude any day.

"Vic.." Kellin said quietly, trying to come closer to me.

"DON'T LEAVE ME!" I lost it and screamed at him, I wasn't even in a proper state of mind. I wasn't me, I was just scared and anything could've escaped my lips at that moment in time. I thought I had scared him and he'd leave me in fear which made me panic more leading to more screaming. When he ran up to me, kneeling in front of me and hugged me he ignored my protests and struggling.

"You won't be alone, you won't. I promised you that you won't, I'm here, darling, you'll be ok," he said and it was his turn to speak a chant. He told me to match my breathing pattern to his and as I slowly began to calm myself it became more and more possible for my panic attack to fade away. He continued to hold me as I let the tears flow, not even bothering to try and hold a couple back.

"Vic, what happened?" he asked but in a kinder, more gentle tone than before. I hesitated for a moment before answering. I now trusted Kellin with my life and I could tell him anything but I didn't want to mention the boy in my dream in front of him but I had no choice, I didn't know who it was anyway.

"I've been having dreams of myself and a boy but I don't know who it is. We've been running away in some fantasy world with amazing creatures that roam the land but not all of them are very pleasant. The first one was a Hawk, the Hawk was the most beautiful. It was the like the one in my drawing and my tattoo," I stopped for a moment to take a breath to stop myself from crying too much again, "Another one was a boy with scars, he was tormenting the boy and it hurt to see him in the amount of pain that he was in, after that the creature-boy turned into me and then disappeared." He nodded as a sign for me to continue, I took a deep breath and braced myself as this was the bit that had set me off, "Then a man appeared and I recognized him. I can't remember who he was now but the boy knew him to. It turned out that it was his Father and instead of running away with me, he went back to his Dad. A hole appeared by feet and opened up and seemed as if it was leading to hell, to my death. I wanted to look at him and see what he was doing, if he'd take me away from the hole but no, he was the one who pushed me into it. His last words to me were 'Now you're alone'" The last part didn't even come out as words, just an extremely loud cry and Kellin cradled me in his arms yet again and hushed me.

"It was just a dream, it's not true. That boy isn't real, no one is going to push you away and leave you. I'm here and I'll make sure you're never alone." I shook my head, the boy in my dream said that he'd never leave me, why would Kellin be any different? Then I thought about it and realized he's different because he's actually been someone whose chosen to be in my life and help me and care about me. He was different and I loved him.

"You promise?" I whispered.

"I promise and I'll prove it to you as well," he said.

"What do you mea-" but before I could finish my sentence his lips were locked with my own. My eyes widened in surprise but soon closed as I took in what was happening. I brought my arms up to wrap them around his neck as he pushed down on me so I was leaning against the wall and I let my hands get tangled in his dark hair.

All too soon he pulled away and looked into my eyes with his emerald ones, leaving me breathless. For a moment we just stared at each other before a smirk appeared across his face and I ended up mimicking it myself.

"And now it's time for you to promise me something," he said and I nodded, unable to wipe the huge smile off of my face, "You promise that you're mine and only mine?" he whispered in my ear.

"I promise," I replied, smiling. That was the start of Kellin and I.

***

The following evening Kellin, Alex and I walked down to a cafe which according to Alex was amazing and he was completely stunned by the fact he hadn't yet made me drink the coffee that they made. I was even more stunned by the fact that Kellin and Alex were already close friends as Kellin also had a secret tattoo which Alex was the artist of.

"So you two are like a thing now?" Alex said as he looked at our intertwined fingers whilst Kellin replied with a simple 'yup'. I laughed at the way he responded but I was so happy anything could've made me laugh that was until we walked past a cemetery. Kellin looked over my head at the hundreds of graves and I noticed that two in particular caught his attention. They weren't very big and looked as if they were around seven or eight year old. The graves were too far for me to read the inscription but Kellin knew who they belonged to but I felt it was to personal for me to ask so I left it as we continued to walk. I also left the matter that the man was still following us.