Please Be My New Memories | Kellic

Chapter 22 ~ The Harmed

As Kellin and I walked to school together Monday morning we both remained silent throughout the whole journey. His reaction to what I told him wasn't what I expected, he cried and kept repeating that he was sorry for not telling me sooner. I was so confused, I knew the truth and that was it. It wasn't his fault and he had no need to apologise to me but that was who he was and I loved him for it.

"It's Friday soon which means you perform soon and I get to hear you sing again soon," he said. I supposed he wanted to forget about last night.

"Yeah, you don't know just how nervous I am about it," I said honestly. The song was about everything I've ever felt and he'll understand the lyrics and everything which made me even more worried.

"It'll be fine, if you get scared just look at me and I'll smile at you like this," he said as he pulled the most idiotic smile I had ever seen and I laughed as he entertwined our fingers. The emotions from last night must've faded away.

We walked into school and that's when they all flooded back and hell started, "Look! It's the self harmers! Don't they make a great couple? The two worthless fags!" I heard some guy in our year shout at us. Wait, self harmers? Kellin harmed himself? I looked at him and he looked just as confused as I did.

"I don't know," he said and pulled us away from the glaring eyes of everyone surrounding us. At least I thought it was him pulling me away but instead it was Jenna and she locked us in the nearest classroom.

"Jenna, do you konw what they're saying out there?" I said and tears started to appear in my eyes. No way could Kellim have self harmed, he couldn't. He didn't deserve it. Jenna just nodded.

"Yeah, the other day someone took Kellin's bag and found a bunch of blades in there. I saw them and I knew they were yours and that he'd taken them away from you. That crazy physco girl, Annabeth, went and told Oli so he found out and came up with that rumour. Would you like me to slap a bitch?"

Normally I would've laughed but my blood was boiling so much that I could've let my anger out on Jenna right then and there but I'd never in a million years forgive myself if I even laid a finger on her. Instead I just nodded, spun on my heels and walked out.

Kellin stood waiting for me and I noticed he was slightly shaking but I couldn't see his face as he was turned away from me. I slowly walked up to him, the whole time he continued to shake, and I placed a hand on his shoulder. He quickly looked at me and his eyes were wide and full of shock. No, one eye was open wide. The other was forced shut by a deep purple bruise. Someone had punched him right in the face and my world instantly fell apart around me. One rumor had caused this. Oli had caused this. I knew that he wasn't stunned by his wound nor did it hurt him as much as it looked, it was the fact that he had been hit that startled him. Kellin was strong enough to defend himself so there obviously must've been more than one person at him.

I opened my arms out and he took my offer and buried his face in my shoulder. Neither of us said anything, we just stood there until the bell rang but even then neither of us wanted to face any other human being. I thought it was just me who needed protecting but in a split second that's changed.

He let go and slid against the wall and I joined him. I knew that a teacher would soon appear but who cares when the person whose kept you alive this whole time, the person you love more than anything is about to break down right in front of you?

"You've had this every day of your life?" I heard him suddenly ask. The question threw me slightly off guard but I didn't even bother to make eye contact as I nodded in reply to his question.

"How?" was all he could say in barely a whisper before he broke down in tears. If I were looking at anyone else I would've thought they were weak, they only got one punch in the face whereas I got a million and more every day but this was Kellin. I could never think that way. I figured that the reason he found this so hard was because the idea that this was what I had to deal with was too overwhelming and he blamed himself again for it.