CRESCENT (Alex X Jacob #2)

Chapter 22

   "I came as soon as I heard".
"Alex..." Even his voice was off. Muffled with heavy breath. Him trying to fight back the pain. And clearly he was not winning. "Thank goodness your...safe".
I wiped the many tears from my face, but more soon filled them as I moved to Jake's side. I sat down on the bed and brought my lips to his forehead. Kissing him I felt his hand grip mine.
"Jake are you-"
Jake smirked, and tried to snicker, but he managed a cough instead. "I'll be fully healed in a few days". He choked out as the sweat built up on his body. I let out a sigh as Jake brought his unjured hand up to my face. Using his fingers he wiped more tears from my eyes.
"You shouldn't be crying". He stated.
"And you shouldn't be laying here in pain, Jake". I stated back raising my voice slighty. "I thought you were dea- You had me worried there, you big idiot". Jake tried his best to muster a smile, but he was failing and it didn't matter. All that I cared about right now was for him to get better. To fully heal. I needed him to be alright. For my sake and for Bella's.
"Im sorry". Jake sighed.
I shook my head. "Its fine".
"I-Its not. I promised you id stay safe-"
"And you did. Your alive Jake. Still here and that's all I wanted. Seth reassured me that you'd heal fast and I can live with that".
Jake shook his head and let out a groan. I hated seeing him like this. In constant pain.
"Bella told me what happened". Jake said trying to sit up. I shook my head and softly pushed him back. He shouldn't be sitting up trying to talk with me. He needed to rest and heal up, but I didn't want to leave him either. As much as I needed to be here to see him, I knew that he needed me too. Knowing that I was safe and comfortable...that brought relief to him and he needed as less stress as possible right now.
"Are you really okay, Alex?"
I let out a sigh and nodded. For the most part I was. Physically and mentally I was as fine as I could have been, but emotionally....I needed time to process everything from today and just rest.
"I-I think so. Everything happened so fast that I couldn't really even begin to process it all. I think getting some sleep would help".
"I'm glad he's dead".
"Jake"
"And I'm glad that she's dead too".
"Alex I need to ask you something, but I-"
"Jake if your asking me to stay here for the night then the answers-"
"I want you to go home". Jake stated catching me off guard while at the sametime interrupting me. My eyes widened at his response. I couldn't believe what I was hearing.
"Jake, but you-"
Jake sighed and closed his eyes trying to fight back the overwhelming pain coming from throughout his body.
"I-I'll be fine, Alex". Jake huffed.
"Your not, Jake please I-"
Jake reached out for my hand and placed it on his burning chest.
"Alex, you need to rest".
I shook my head and leaned in. "If anyone needs rest it's you, Jake I'm not leaving you".
Jake tried to grin. "Im not giving you a choice". He stated.
I shook my head once more.
"I can't-"
"Alex, please go get some rest". He replied. "at least do it for me".
He was right. We both needed rest, and there was nothing that I could do for Jake in his current situation. Charlie had said that it would take a while for his wounds to heal. Making him bed reddened for a few days. Jake would still be here, laying in bed tomorrow. I let out a sigh and pulled lose strangs of my hair back behind my ear. Then I sat up from Jake's bed.
"Alright, you win". I smiled alittle, "I'll get some rest, but I'm coming to see you tomorrow and you have no choice".
Jake tried his best to mutter a chuckle, but in doing so his body got the better of him and he let out a groan making more tears swell up in my eyes. I shook my head, overcome with guilt and dashed out of his house. Not stopping I flew past both Carlisle and Billy as I bolted down the road. I knew I was miles from Charlie's but I didn't seem to care. After a while I let my legs give way and I stopped to catch my breath. Then I started up again, only this time I took to walking.

They always told you to never walk alone in the dark in the middle of nowhere, but with everything that had happened I just didn't give a crap. My head was so fuzzy, clouded with so many things that I couldn't think straight. Thank gods I was driving.
However, the only consent flowing thing on my mind was Jake. Was he really going to be okay? I mean Im sure that Carlsile did everything that he could to help Jake, but I still didn't know...wiping the remaing tears from my face I noticed a particularly familier pair of headlights slowing pulling over in front of me. Edward smiled as he saw me. Though he wasn't my fav person I was glad to see that someone had found me.
"Can I give you a lift?" He asked. I nodded my head and went to the opposite side and climbed in the passenger side. Edward sighed and took off again down the road.
"Bella informed me about Jacob. Alex I am sorry". Edward apologized as I brought my knees up against my chest. I let out a sigh.
"Thanks. Carlisle said he should be fine in a few days". I stated.
Edward nodded.
"I-I just wanted to thank you. Both of you. Well all of your family. Anyways thank you, Edward for you know...everything".
Edward smiled.
"It was my pleasure". He said. "And you are welcome. Alex I know that you never fully got a chance to come to terms with Bella and I's engagement, but I want you to know that I love Bella very much Alex. I want to spend my life with her and I know that she feels the same way about me".
Letting out a sigh I glanced over at him. In the back of my head I always had a feeling that Bella would stay with Edward for years to come, but it wasn't until recently that it started to sink in. They both loved each other very much, and I understood how they felt. I loved Jake so much that I would do anything to stay with him. I knew how Edward felt about my sister and vise versa. And I was not about to end that.
"I know that". I said. "The way you look at her. There's love. I know you want to marry her and spend your life with her, but that's not what scares me, Edward..."
As soon as that last part left my lips I knew that Edward and I were on the same page. He knew what I was about say and this particular thing scared him too. I could feel it.
"I understand, Alex".
I let out a sigh. "No one had to tell me, I could figure it out on my own. I mean my sister loves you and you love her, if she stayed human and died that would kill you and.....well I want you both to be happy".
Edward shook his head.
  "She shouldn't want become what I am".
"Edward, as much as I want Bella to experience growing old, having kids you know that she'd give it all up in a heartbeat to be with you?" I reminded him. My sister loved Edward and if being a vampire meant that she could stay with him, then she would do it. And really I...I coulnt hate her for it. It I had to give up my life to be with Jake...I know that I would do it.
"However, I want her to experience those things". Part of my really felt for him. As much as I would give up to be with Jake for forever. Not being able to grow old or have children, it seemed cruel and unfair. I really didn't want to miss out on those...
But then that was me. Bella was always so different from me. She wanted the more unsual things in life and maybe becoming a vampire for the rest for her life was that unusal choice.
"I can't speak for my sister, but I can speak for myself and after almost losing Jake today I would do anything in my power to stay with him...even if that meant becoming immortal".

Sorry for the delay, but with the end of the semester coming up and the holidays it's been quite crazy around my house.