CRESCENT (Alex X Jacob #2)

Chapter 14

All of this was being to hurt my brain. Every since moving back here everything I had ever known had been turned on its head. From my best friend now bf to the life that my sister led. Frankly I was still having trouble wrapping my head around it. Finding out that Jake was a werewolf had thrown me for loop, but then finding out that the so called guy my sister was dating was a vampire and so was his entire family. It made me question things.
  Alice showing up at our house that night, after they had adaondoned my sister and telling me that her family were vampires pissed me off. Not only for the fact that my own sister had kept this from but also for the fact that so did Jake. The one person that I though I could trust had lied to me too. I had reasons to be pissed off at everyone in that very room, including Alice. The fact that my own sister would rather spend her time with blood drinking creatures then with her own family angered me.
  That night was the night that my anger at Edward and his family had grown. Not only had they left my sister alone, but they left her alone at night in the woods and never bothered to see how she was holding up all those months. It proved to me that they really didn't give a shit about her. Now matter how many times Edward told me that he was sorry or that he loved her I couldn't bring myself to believe him. I wanted nothing to do with any of them. After everything they had put my family through I just wanted Bella to forget all about Edward.
  However I knew that my sister could never do that. Edward as it would seem was her missing piece. The one thing in her life that she wanted to be with. To fight for. He made her feel special and alive in some strange way. I loved my sister with everything that I was and I had been away from her for almost ten years. In the short time that I gotten back we had grown our relationship back to what it used to be. We were on good terms on, after I had kept my distance from her for so long.
  Everything was set perfectly, even with all this newborn vampire army crap. The last thing that I wanted to do was shatter that. Both of us were stuburn minded, there was no questions about that, however I knew that time was short. Bella of all people knew that. And after everything that had happened here over the last year, the last thing I wanted to do was make my sister upset.
And yet...
If I had told her that the Cullens were dangerous, she would just throw that same argument about Jake back in my face..and I didn't want to fight with her. Not again. Not right now.
  Letting out a sigh I finally sat down and gazed all-around me at the hundreds and hundreds of standing trees. At the beginning it wasn't the fact that they were vampires that scared me. It was the fact that they had brought my sister into their world and then just left her. Alice made it clear that night when she returned that they, especially he didn't want to leave, but they had no other choice. Bella didn't really belong in their world. She really cared about my sister's safety and I believed her. Maybe not then, but eventually I did. She didn't really give me a reason not too.
  At first it was hard to trust any of them. Especially Ed and his brother Jasper. Both of them had ticked me off and I wasn't going to apologize for how I felt about them. I knew that Jasper didn't mean to hurt my sister. My feelings about him started to grow softer as I heard what he had been through after he was transformed, and I didn't really hate him anymore. Still I wasn't that happy with him either and we weren't going to be buddies anytime soon. That was obvious.
   Edward was becoming a story all his own. I didn't even get to meet him when I first came back, and already he was making a very negative impression on me. Leaving Bella and never bothering to call or check up on her. Made me rage for months. He clearly wasn't getting on my good side and coming to find out that he was a vampire didn't add anything good to the mix. I was pretty rude to him and I wasn't too upset about that. I had every right to act that way to him.
But now...
Now I didn't find myself hating him as much now...or at all for that matter. I still didn't know if I could trust him or not, and him dating my sister wasn't gaining any points with, but he cared about Bella. He really did, even after leaving her. I did it to protect her, still wasn't so sure about that, but I wanted to give him the benefit of the doubt.
Everything he and his family were doing to protect me and my sister made me feel softer towards them all. The same went for the wolves. They would all risk their lives to protect two ordinary girls. Most people wouldn't stop to help a child. Here me and my sister were with a whole family to help us. That made feel like I had vaild reasons to trust the Cullen's and I knew that would make Bella happy, to see that I was giving them a chance.
If it was being honest, it kind of made me happy too.
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This whole thought process is Alex trying to trust the Cullen's. Trying to see what they did for Bella and they choices they made. She still doesn't like them 100 percent, but she's trusting them and that's a start.