Torn

Chapter Ten

I stepped off the stage, sweat hot against my skin. The lady to my left wiped at my face before handing me the towel to finish it myself. I pulled my bass over my head as Toni came into view. Niall was smiling over at her as she giggled. Her nose wrinkled a small hand covering her mouth. I didn't want to be near her but I felt her gravity pulling me in. Her rope was tight around my waist as she looked up at me. Her eyes were clear the green deeper than normal. Niall left her side, she didn't notice, I wouldn't allow her to look away. My heart was hammering as she took the first step toward me. "Stop staring." She whispered now in front of me. Camera's flashed around us causing me to frown.

"Can we go somewhere?" I said softly, she smiled wrapping her small hands around my arm.

We ended up at the park down the street. The air was warm but being close to her had me on fire. She took a seat on the bench facing the fountain, I was hesitant to take the space beside her before she patted the wood causing me to smile. I took the seat her smile warm. "Tell me." I said playing with my fingers. "What went through your head that day."

She sighed. "I was at the beach." She started slowly. "I can hardly remember, i've worked so hard to block it all out." I couldn't look at her. "All I remember is running to him feeling deep in me that five years I deserved it. I was so fucking selfish." Her hands went into her hair. "You gave me everything in you when he was to busy ramming his dick up someones ass." I coughed hiding my embarrassment with her words. She didn't pay attention eyes staring straight. "When you walked in I saw everything. I saw how you felt about me, how I ripped you to shreds with my bare hands." She was crying now her voice cracking. I wanted to comfort her but I couldn't bring myself to do it. "And then I left." Her eyes met mine. "I felt so empty when you made me feel so full. So full of life and warmth when all he did was wring me dry until I couldn't give no more." She shook her head tears hitting her cheeks. "I should of never went to him. I've known for so long how much pain he has put me through, even if he didn't know." I couldn't stop myself now, I wrapped my arm tightly around her shoulders pulling her in. She was hurting she had been hurting since that day.

"You're right." I whispered against her hair as she sobbed against me. "You ripped me apart. Like you didn't even care." I could feel the venom seeping into my tone. I swallowed it back and continued. "But I have no more ill feelings toward you. I've loved you since that first day Allison walked you into the fucking dressing room with your one direction shirt and your snarl towards Luke when he told you harry was gay." She pulled back a smile soft on her lips. I gripped her chin in my large hands. "You were mine then, your mine now we both feel it." I leaned in, my lips almost connecting till her words fell.

"I leave in the morning." I pulled back loosing contact with her skin.

"I can't catch a fucking break." She looked away, tears fighting to break loose once again. She got up and began walking away. "Toni!" I snarled following her. "Fucking stop!" She turned to me her eyes hooded with tears. "I fucking want you." I was screaming, everything I released against the punching bag the past three months rising again. "I want you as mine, my wife, my best friend, my forever." Her lips were parted as I poured my heart out onto the street. "I'm fucking lost without you." Before I could breathe her small hands were in my hair and thighs wrapped around my torso. "I love you." She breathed before connecting our lips again.

*Toni's pov*

The pressure on my chest that had been weighing against me for the past couple of months vanished as Calum sat me on my feet. Large hands traced my bottom lip as his eyes sparkled at me. He was my warmth, he made butterflies in my stomach make me want to float away. Harry had no comparison on Calum and that was the honest truth.

He walked me back, hand in hand. "I've missed this." He whispered running a finger across the back of my hand. "But I don't want to see you alone with Harry, ever again." I looked up at him, his eyes dark.

"I'm yours." I whispered pulling him down to me. "Only yours."

******* i have so many Calum feels, like that boy makes me weak in the damn knees . Toni xoxo ***********