Torn

Chapter Thirty

It felt like I had been in the same spot for hours, the sun disappeared behind the ocean as I stood. I turned myself sideways glancing at the new mirror against the large white wall. The bump was growing quickly like a disease pushing me to the end.
I shook the ugly thought and made my way to the bathroom. I needed to shower clear my head before Calum came to bed, if he even will.
The water was warm steam fillings the air as music flowed through the bathroom. I did appreciate Calum's need to have speakers in every part of the house.
I couldn't stand the water against my sensitive skin any longer, quickly turning it off I wrapped myself in a large towel.
Calum was laid out on the bed, arms rested gently on his stomach. "hi" he whispered timidly as I walked in front of him. "I'm sorry about today it was childish of me." I pulled shorts up my legs as he spoke, my back to him. "It won't happen again. After that me and the guys talked and i'm a father now I cannot be acting like that." his words were reassuring, taking away my frustrations. Damn straight he cannot be acting like that!
He raised a hand beckoning me to him. I was drawn in unwillingly, my eyes closed as he wrapped an arm around my waist. "forgive me." he whispered against my temple.
"You're lucky you're so damn cute." I snickered. He pulled back a face splitting grin gleamed at me. "I hope this bump get's your smile." I whispered tracing my finger around the edges of his lips.
"I hope the bump has your eyes, i've never seen a color so pretty." crimson took over my face as he stared at me. "are you going to get in bed or would you like me to hold you like this all night ." I rolled my eyes as I quickly and ungracefully crawled across his lap. He let a huff as I finally relaxed against him, a leg draped across his waist.
"so downstairs?" I whispered, I couldn't stop the smile as his eyes lit up.
"I want to turn it into a nice studio for the boys and I. We can record others, It will be a great addition to the house. I'm talking all the high in shit, I want it to be nice."
I nuzzled into his side as went into more details of the design of his room. His words warmed my heart as the realization of our new life gulfed me with love.

***

"Stop fighting you love for me." Soft lips traced across my jawline, his breath was warm across my skin. Green eyes met mine as he pulled back, leaving me flustered. "You and I, that's who's meant to be." strong arms pulled me into a warm chest as the familiar scent intoxicated me. "Look at how well you fit against me." he purred.
"Oh Harry." I cried tightening my grip on his waist. "This is right." tears escaped my cheeks as he began to drift from my arms. "No!" I screamed.

"Wake up, It's Just a bad dream." Calum's wide eyes came into my view as he wrapped me in the blanket we shared. "Shush." large hand trailed through my hair as my breathing steadied. "Do you want to talk about it?" Harry's eyes came flashed in my head. "You seem pretty shaken up." he whispered.
"Can we just go back to sleep please?"
The dream felt so surreal like Harry was speaking to me in person. The thought created a ping in my chest that I just wanted to disappear. Sleep came too soon as Harry came back a warm smile on his face.

*Harry's pov*

I sat up panting, sweat covering my sheets, Cara smiled sweetly at me from my side. "well done." she whispered as she wiped at her own clammy skin. "Shall we go again?" As much as I didn't want to sleep and see Toni crying, I shook my head. Cara nodded respecting that this was all so new to me.
I watched her slender body disappear into her room in the apartment we shared. I laid back, crossing my arms over my stomach as the dream replayed behind my eyelids.

Everything around me is dark except for those piercing green eyes rimmed red. I couldn't look at them for much longer but her cries were getting louder the longer i stayed standing here. "Harry help me please." The light was blinding as red surrounded me. It was blood, her blood. she laid on a table her large belly stained with bruises. "It's killing me." she whispered as blood oozed from her nose. I couldn't move the blood around my feets was like cement holding me away from her. Each moment her breathing slowed, she gasped then another cried entered the room.