Torn

Chapter Twenty

Toni's skin was clammy as I lifted her off of the couch from inside the bus. She clung to me like a frightened baby, her nails digging into my forearm. Her sobs where calming as we laid in the bunk making sure to keep her close.
After an hour I spoke. "Are we going to talk about?"
"What?" She croaked.
"Your dream." i watched as her eyes closed. Her chest lowered as her breathing grew heavy.
"You. You said I wasn't worth it." Tears were forming once more. I didn't want to put her through this but I needed to know. "Sydney. I wouldn't go so I wasn't worth it." She turned burring her face into my side. "You left."
"Baby no." I wrapped my arm around her pulling her tightly close to me. "Never. You're more important than Sydney. Fuck i'll go anywhere if it means I'm with you." She sniffled sounding like a small child. Was Sydney worth losing her? No, never I lost her once and that was enough.
Her breathing deepened letting me know she was asleep. I slipped out from under her. I had some where to go.

*Toni's pov*

Allison screamed my name as I stepped off the bus following Calum. "You're here early." I laughed hugging her.
"Yeah." A smirk crossed her face before Ashton come off the bus. "Excuse me." She said going to him.
"How are you feeling?" Calum asked against my hair. My protector.
"I wish I hadn't woke up alone." I whispered gripping his hand.
"Sorry Kitten."
"Kitten?" I giggled my cheeks warming.
"Yeah you said it in your sleep." The blush deepened at the memory. My mouthed formed an O shape causing him to laugh.
"We're going to the Zoo tomorrow." ashton announced. I couldn't help but get a little excited. Calum's grip tightened as I smiled up at him.
"Should be fun." Luke said twirling a basketball on his finger.
"C'mon you need a shower." Calum said pulling me away from the group.
"I'm going to go get you some clothes." He kissed my temple and left me alone inside the bathroom of their dressing room. He was being very cautious around me. I knew it was because of my dream, Calum wouldn't leave me like that. He's a better person than that, any day.
I removed my clothing and stepped under the hot water. I allowed it to remove my fears and relax me.
"You look beautiful." Calum whispered stepping in behind me. A large finger trailed the side of my neck and down my shoulder. "I can't wait till I have you forever." My stomach warmed as arms wrapped around me. We stood like that until the water's temperature changed causing me to whine. "Let me wash my hair real quick." Calum raised his hands into the air laughing.
"I have a show to do tonight." He whispered as my shirt was pulled over my head. I looked at myself in the mirror and pouted. It looked like I hadn't had any sleep. "You don't have to go."
I turned to him. "I'll be where I always am, supporting you." I kissed his cheek. "Now go get ready." A large hand snapped against my behind as he exited the bathroom.

***

"How are you feeling?" Niall asked as the boys played there set.
"I'm fine how are you?"
"Excited for the Zoo tomorrow." I raised an eyebrow. "Yeah Calum invited us all." Oh. "We're all pretty excited to get a day out." I nodded looking past him to the stage. My man was in his element pleasing the crowd along with his favorite people. I couldn't help the smile that formed on my face.
"You love him." A deep voice whispered. Both Niall and I turned to Harry who was staring at me. "I'm excited for the Zoo tomorrow too." He smiled before walking away. Calum invited him too? What the hell is going on?
"Excuse me." I whispered as Calum excited the stage. "Baby." He smiled pulling me in against him.
"I love you, don't forget that." He said letting me go.

•••

"Have you gotten your nails done lately?" Allison asked from beside me as we got ready.
I raised an eyebrow at her, confused. "Yeah I did on monday."
"Mkay" she whispered going back to her hair. Okay. "Curl your hair." She commented. What.
"It's hot."
"Just do it." She rolled her eyes. "Trust me." I did as she said.
I pulled the lace top over my skin glancing once more into the mirror. I looked like I was about to go to an important lunch.
"Where's Calum?" I asked as we all headed toward the cars. Luke's arm wrapped around me pulling me in.
"Management needed him real quick." He frowned before squeezing me. "He will be with us soon." I nodded disappointed. Management was always getting in the way.
I sat in between Luke and Michael, Ashton and Allison in the seat in front of us. The one direction boys where in the car behind us. The sun was bright but the temperature was perfect. "I haven't been to a zoo in so long." Luke giggled. "I'm giddy." Michael chimed in.
We pulled in the parking lot empty. "Did you guys rent the entire zoo.?" I exclaimed.
"Yeah we wanted a peaceful day." Ashton said looking out the window. I wanted to grip onto Calum's hand. The thought made me frown.
We stepped out of the car. No Calum. "C'mon it will be fun." Luke whispered as the One direction boys stepped out.
"You guys went all out aye?" Liam asked Sophia linked to his hand. I never see much of them so seeing them was a surprise.
The gates opened and I felt at home. The zoo had always been my safe haven even when I was young. Luke smiled down at me as I relaxed against him.
We went through most of the Zoo without Calum. Almost an hour later we came to a stop under a large gazebo. Long flowers flowed off the sides as we came closer I gasped. There stood Calum dressed in a crisp black suit. His hair perfectly styled the way I liked it. Everyone pushed me forward smiles all over their faces. "Toni." He said strongly causing my heart to stutter. "I'm sorry I didn't get to accompany you today." Tears were forming in my eyes. His warm finger stroked my cheek as a young woman in a black dress stepped our way a joey hopping along side her. I gasped again causing Calum to laugh.
They reached his side and he dropped to one knee. "Calum!" I cried.
"Day one, I knew you were it. Day one, i knew forever wouldn't be enough. I need you always by side rather we are in Sydney or fucking japan I need you. Toni Lynn will you do me the honor of being." He turned to the kangaroo as a paw passed a small mint colored box to my future husband. "My wife." He whispered as the box was open. A large ring appeared, I couldn't move. "Say something." He croaked tears in his eyes.
"Yes, yes, yes!" He rose from his feet. It felt like it had been forever until our lips touched and all our closets's friends erupted into clapping.