Torn

Chapter Twenty Nine

Bubbles filled the bathtub as Toni sat straddling my lap. Her sweet lips moved with mine as small fingers pulled on the hair across the nape of my neck. "I love you." I whispered as lips trailed down my neck.
"And i love you. Let's get in." her eyes shined as she stepped into the hot water. I slipped in behind her, she rested against me her eyes closed. "you know." she whispered. "that was probably the best sex we've ever had."
I laughed and kissed her temple. "Because I almost lost you."
"i would have came back, maybe as a bass or a cat." her giggle sang with my laugh as i traced the freckles on her shoulder.
"This baby will do good things for us."
"we are not even married." she whispered.
i kissed her temple. "would you like to get married before the baby?" she turned until her body was facing me.
Her eyes searched my face, unsure of her answer. "yes" she whispered. My thumb grazed her bottom lip.
"If that's what you want then that's what will do." I looked to her growing baby bump. "It would probably have to be soon."
"If i was still fat I wouldn't be showing by now"
"for one you weren't fat, just glorious in all your curves." she giggled laying back against me. "And no matter what i will probably always be immensely in love with you." She turned, eyes dark. Before I could say another word her warm lips were on mine. "As much as I would love to make love to you, we need to get to bed." Her bottom lip pushed into a pout. "Up you go." I whispered gripping her shoulders.

*Toni's pov*

I couldn't stop my laughter as Calum ruffled the large towel up and down my arms. His eyes twinkled with life as he kissed my cheek. "Come to bed please." he whispered pulling a robe up my back. I watched as large fingers tied a knot at the peak of my bump. He kept his eyes on mine as he stepped back into our bedroom. Looking at myself in the mirror, I didn't look any different. My skin was blotched red from the hot water, and more freckles had appeared across my nose but other than that I was the same old me. So much had happened between us that thinking about it made my head spin.
"Toni i'm getting lonely." Calum called his voice warm.
Stepping into the bedroom Calum's dark eyes met mine. He laid on his side of the new bed dressed only in tight fitting briefs. "You have mahvelous legs Mr. Hood." I whispered crawling to him. A large hand swatted at my behind as I rested next to his side.
"I could say the same about you." he kissed my forehead and squeezed me a little tighter. The light of the tv on the wall in front of our bed flashed blue as he opened netflix. I pouted but made no move to protest. He pulled the new bedspread Mali had picked out up our entwined legs. "go to sleep my love." he whispered softly against my hair.

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"Ma she's sleeping." Calum's voice was hushed as I peeped through my eyelashes. His naked back was to me as he leaned up against the balcony railing. The door opened allowing the fresh morning breeze in. "Just give us an hour okay I will have her there... yes I do...okay...yeah...love you too bye ma."
He turned to me. "Good morning." he smiled. I watched as the muscle across his stomach moved as he made his way back inside. "My mother insists that you meet with the wedding planner today since you are now cancer free." I covered my mouth with a hand to stifle my giggles. His warm hand grasped my wrist. "I love the sound of your laugh." eyes searched mine, digging deeply through my soul. "we don't have much time get up." a warm kiss was placed on my cheek.

CALUM refused to attend with me. He said it was a womanly thing to do and he had band practice. I pouted as he gently pushed me out the door to his large vehicle. "Drive safely." he whispered before shutting my drivers door.
The drive alone was something magically, the sun always shines bright in the Australian streets. Thirty minutes later I arrived outside a small house with a nicely decorated front yard. I could see Mali's car as I made my way up the stone path.
Inside it was filled with warm colors, yellows, pinks, sky blues. "Ah here she is!" A familiar voice sang. Three ladies rose as I came around the corner. Mali, Calum's mother, and a blonde woman with a dazzling smile. "Toni I am Carina and i am so pleased to finally be able to meet you with a clean bill of health." her eyes grazed my stomach. "and a fifth member." I pressed a smile my hand absentmindedly tracing a line down the bump. Three pairs of eyes were gleaming at me as I finally took a seat. "What is your vision for this wedding." I placed the binder down that I had been making since I was freshman in high school. "Oh prepared I like that."
"We don't have a lot of time to pull this off." I said sternly, eyeing her. "I want this done before I am six months." her mouth parted as I continued. "I wasn't planning on having a beach wedding but that's the only kind of dress that will hide the bump gracefully." she pulled out of her moment and began writing down what I wanted. "Mint and gold are my colors, with some dashes of a light baby pink, subtle, elegant."
"Ooo I like that." Mali chimed, her chin resting in the palm of her hand. I felt in control as I showed pictures of chairs, gowns, flowers.
"What about the groomsmen?" Carina asked her eyes on the paper.
"Calum I want in a light grey suit, Mint tie. His groomsmen, dark grey suit with gold tie. The can just wear black converse because i'm pretty sure we won't be able to get Calum into a dress shoe." His mother nodded a warm smile on her face.
"Food?" she continued, I was stumped. That was the one thing I never thought of. I turned to my mother in law and her daughter for guidance.
"served meals, no buffet." Mali spoke up. "Chicken, wild rice, maybe some salmon, potatoes something not too heavy but filling."
It went on like this for another hour as we bounced ideas back and forth. It was decided that there would be a dj and not a live band. The cakes would be decided when I was able to bring Calum along.
"Drive carefully." Mali said with a hand on the bump.
"You too." I cheered clambering into the car. I pulled into traffic as Calum's music came on the radio. My heart fluttered along to his voice. Maybe I could get him to sing to the bump. The image of Calum laying close to my stomach, singing made me miss him.
Pulling into my driveway there were four new cars sitting outside. I parked where everyone would be able to leave and marched my way inside. The house was empty, I looked around puzzled. Something clattered in the kitchen drawing me there. "Hello?" I asked, Harry's moppy hair poked up from the door of my fridge.
"Hey." he whispered sweetly before closing the door. I glanced at his hands to see a case of beer.
"Having a party are we?" I asked with a raised eyebrow. He smiled gripping my hand as he led my downstairs towards the basement. Music flooded my ears as everyone came into view. Calum, Luke and then Michael. Ashton was running towards Harry to grab the beers.
"there's my darling." Calum slurred running toward me. An old couch had appeared facing the equipment.
"what's all this?"I asked as Calum gripped my chin, the scent of alcohol fanned over my face. No, no. I pushed at his hands and made my way to the large doors. The fresh air hit my face subsiding the nausea but didn't hold it back.
Calum was at my side clambering to grip my hair and pull it out of my face as more vomit escaped me. "My baby." he soothed running a hand up and down my back.
I stood tears running down my cheeks, my throat in flames. "why are you drunk in the middle of the afternoon?"I snapped pushing him away from me. Anger was boiling my blood as my soon to be husband stared at me confused.
"we're just having a good time." Harry's words were rushed as he gripped Calum's shoulders. "I would say have a drink with us but." he raised his eyebrows as he glanced down at the bump. That damn bump.
"I am going to go shower, since it seems i've been planning your wedding all damn day." I screamed as I marched my way back up stairs.
Calum called my name as Luke told him to leave me alone.
I laid down on the large bed and began to sob.