Torn

Chapter Twenty Three

Calum's childhood home warmed my heart. We stood outside our hands intertwined. "You okay?" He whispered still looking forward.
"Oh Calum i'm american what if they don't like me."
"Just be you and I know they will love you." He tugged on my hand as he marched forward. He ushered me up the stairs and kicked the door open. "Ma! Mali!" He led me through the home, the smell of flowers caused me to smile. "Come on their outside." He said sliding the door open.
"Cal!" A scream erupted causing him to let go of me. A tall girl with long hair wrapped tan arms around him. She pulled back and smiled at me. "You brought home a little person" she giggled pulling me in. "All jokes my new sister. I've heard many things about you." She was a little taller than her brother causing me to stand right under her chin.
"Oh my boy." A warm voice whispered. Mali let go of me as Calum's mother came into view. Her skin was tanned, her yellow sundress was almost identically as mine.
Calum pulled out of her embrace. I felt his hand touch the small of my back as he pulled my forward. "Mom this is Toni. My fiancé."
"Another daughter." She giggled pulling me in. She was closer to my height than the other two. "We are going to have to get some sun on this skin." She said with a warm smile. "Good luck on that one." I giggled causing Calum to laugh.
"Let me see that ring." She sang taking my left hand. "Oh my Calum it's huge."
I saw him shrug out of the corner of my eye. I smiled at him my heart swelling.
"It must weigh a tun."
"She should see Ashton's fiancé's" i giggled. Their moods uplifted me, or maybe it was the sound of the ocean in the background.

*calums pov*

They loved her, I knew they would. I watched as she slipped out of her dress. "So much food." She giggled running a small hand over her bloated stomach.
"Would you like to take a walk on the beach?" I whispered. She gleamed up at me before nodding happily.
The sand was warm between my toes. "I love you." He whispered. I looked up from my feet to his face. The moon was full and shining on his face.
"I love you. I mean I better if I'm going to put up with your kiwi ass for the rest of my life."
"And all my kiwi babies."
I looked forward. "Babies. We're going to talk about babies."
He sighed. "My mother brought it up while Mali was showing you around and honestly I would love to see you rounded with my child."
"Oh god stop talking." I groaned covering my ears. "Rounded with my child who are you."
"Baby I'm marrying you. We're buying the home you want. Don't i get anything out of this." His eyes were wounded as I looked up at him.
"You get me and endless sex with no responsibilities." He rolled his eyes. "I'm not having this conversation." I began to walk away only to be snapped back.
"We are having this conversation Toni."
"I don't want children."
"I do."
"I'm sorry." He let go of me.
"Why? What's so bad about having a family with me."
Why was he doing this. "I don't want to fight. Can we please go home." He began to walk back the way we came. We walked with a wide distance between us. There was tension growing and I hated it.

The bed looked welcoming as we stepped into his childhood room. "I-i will sleep on the couch." He whispered avoiding eye contact. I was speechless, i didn't move as he grabbed a blanket and left.
I crawled in sliding under the blanket. I felt alone and cold. The tv from the living room drowned out my thoughts as I began to cry.

*calums pov*

I felt numb as I fixed my tie, Toni beside me applying her makeup. "We have to figure out our best man, maid of honor speeches at this dinner. Maggie wants to approve." She said in a monotone.
"That's fine." I snapped exiting the room. I missed her touch but my pride wouldn't allow her to touch me.
She sat down on the bed and slipped on her heels. "I would say we could take different cars but I don't want your mother to worry." She put on an earring then another. "Lets go." I nodded following her out.
"Oh Calum you look so handsome and Toni that dress looks amazing and expensive."
"It was. I like to spoil myself sometimes." She giggled her cheeks warming.
"No shame in that." Mali laughed along with her.
"Let's go, I'll drive." I whispered leaving the home.
My mother sat in the passenger seat humming along to our latest album.
The hotel was large and elegant, i heard toni gasp as she walked along behind me. The ball room was dressed with lavender and cream. "I knew these colors would look lovely together. Oh there's Allison excuse me." She touched my mother's shoulder before hurrying to her friend.
"What's going on between you two? Yesterday she wouldn't let go of your hand today she wont even look at you." My mother whispered.
"It's nothing ma. Hey ashton!" I hurried away from her.
"It's sick isn't it!" He laughed looking around.
"Yeah so sick" i laughed as I was handed a sleek glass.

*Toni's pov*

"Allison has been my best friend since freshman year of high school." I chuckled gaining a smile from the hundreds of people in front of the bridal party. "She's more my sister than a friend. I will cherish her till the day I die. Ashton you better do the same damn thing." I raised my glass and pressed a smile. "Love you both." They smiled at me as I took my seat.
Calum coughed. "I guess it's my turn." He stood all the girls were goo goo over him. "All i have to say is Ashton you are never right. A life lesson to live by." He looked to me as he took a drink. I cleared my throat taking a drink along with him.

•••

"That was a lovely dinner." Calums mother spoke as we walked into her home the time early in the morning. I was drunk along with Calum. "We're going to bed." He slurred pulling me down the hall.
He shut the door behind him and locked it. "Oh you're going to sleep with me tonight." I snapped.
"Oh trust me baby we arent sleeping." He winked as he tried to unbutton his shirt.
"I'm not having sex with you. Not here and not after last night."
"Oh shut up i'll use a condom." He drew his lips across my exposed skin. A shiver went down my spine.
"Calum." I cried trying to push him off. He bit down onto my skin causing me to yelp. "Calum stop please."
"You're mine" he growled into my ear. I punched against his chest as he pushed me into him.
"No stop." He pulled back his eyes wet.
"You don't love me because I want children." I watched as a tear rolled down his flushed cheeks.
"Calum." I whispered. "You're drunk please go to sleep." He stepped away from me.
"No! You don't want my fucking children! I want a fucking family but no you're to goddamn good for it."
It was my turn. I cried out his name as he continued his threats. He backed me up into the corner. "To pretty to be pregnant. To goddamn good for my children."
"It's not you." I repeated for the hundredth time. I sat down wrapping my arms around my knees.
He squatted down in front of me. "Maybe I am to goddamn good for you." He whispered before standing. He swayed in front of me before he ran off.

****** just because i am a little emotional tonight******