intoxicated s.p.

Ch. 30

"Mad? Kinda. I'm more disappointed." I said.

"Babe, listen I wanted to tell you I was just afraid."

"Afraid of what?! That I would leave you? Afraid that maybe I would be mad?!"

"Meg, I-I was afraid that you would be and do both. We have only been together for a month and I didn't want it to end."

"Sam I love you and I would never, ever leave you over you moving. I think it's great that your growing up and moving out but I want you to at least tell me. What if you moved with out notice. Sam I ugh! I-I can't do this right now," I said getting more upset than mad now.

"Babe plea-"

"Don't."

"But baby I-"

"Sam I need some time to myself,"

"Wh-what does that mean." He stuttered tears coming to his eyes now.

"I just need to think. We aren't breaking up, I just need space to think about this." I said letting tears fall.

Sam stood up letting his tears fall too before wiping them quickly. He walked to the door and opened it. He walked out but stopped, back still facing me, and said, "I love you."

Making me start to cry harder. I sat down on my bed after he shut the door and cried. I know we didn't break up but it sure as hell felt like it. This was our first real fight. I mean we always fought about little things like what show to watch or what food to order but this, this was pretty big.

I started to blast sad music in my room and lie down. In My Veins by Andrew Belle. As I listen to the lyrics I cry harder. I felt and knew I was stupid for crying but really didn't care. I just kept thinking about what if Sam really does move and never talk to me again. Or if he breaks up with me because he's moving. I clutched onto my pillow and cried. I heard knocking at my door and put a pillow over my head.

"Go away! Please, please." I cried.

The door opened and I lifted my head and saw Jc and Kian standing there. I cried knowing that these were the only boys I wanted with me right now.

"Kian," I mumbled through my sobs.

They both walked in my room and sat on my bed, Kian picking me up and placing me on his lap. I grabbed onto his sweatshirt and cried into his sweatshirt. All I Want by Kodaline started playing and I cried harder.

"If you loved me why'd you leave me, take my body, take my body. All I want is and all I need is to find somebody. I'll find somebody like youu."

Kian rubbed my back and I just cried. Jc looked and me and held my hand.

"If it makes you feel any better, he's not holding up any better." Jc said.

"Oh my god I'm such a bitch, I totally ruined him." I cried.

"He keeps whispering 'It's all my fault.' over and over." Jc added.

"I can't talk to him. No no I can't talk to him yet."

"Meg, the tour starts next week your gunna have to face him sometime." Kian said.

"I will face him then. I just can't believe he told everyone but me. Like can I even trust him now? All he had to do was at least tell me." I said.

"It was hard for him Meg, he knows that he leaves and its far away. He's scared." Kian said.

"Then why leave?!" I cried.

"I don't know sis. I just don't know,"

SAM'S P.O.V.