Daughter of Lies - The Asgardian Avenger

Twenty Five

Sebastian's POV

She doesn't even acknowledge me. Her eyes are fixed on the warm fire. The longer I wait for a response, a chastisement, a cry of indignation, the more my heart seems to hurt.

My eyes water, on the verge of sobbing on the floor, curled up in the fetal position. "Please."

Finally she turns to me, her eyes bloodshot and swollen from crying. She is still the most beautiful thing I've ever seen, even with the painful glint of sorrow in her jade eyes. "Why?" is her equally pained response. "Why would you do this to me?"

"I- I tried, Kathryn. I tried to push her away but I didn't try hard enough." My voice cracks as tears come. I don't even try to wipe them away.

"So this is her fault? You're going to blame it on her?" Her voice is cold, unforgiving.

"Blondie, you can read my mind! Please! Just forgive me! You don't have to marry me. You don't have to..." I wince as my mind spits out a cruel thought. "You don't have to love me. Just please, please forgive me."

I fall back onto the unforgiving chair across from hers, my head in my hands. The silence almost hurts as much as the words.

Her palms start to glow slightly and her eyes slide shut. I watch in pain as she tenses up, flinching at my memories, the ones I didn't share with her.

Just stay with me, Sebastian. Her voice is silky and dripping with lies.

I shake my head. The memories that I hide deep down, the ones that eat away slowly at my soul, the ones that lead up to their death. Those bloodstained, shrieking memories that hide in my heavy heart, never allowing me to forgive myself.

"Sebastian," I hear Kathryn whisper. "Sebastian, I understand now. Please come back to me! Wake up!"

But it's too late. I've tucked myself into a ball, drowning in the horrific reawakened feelings and memories as they escape from their prison.

"Just finish the mission!"

"She doesn't love you, you're worthless!"

"No wonder your parents wanted to die, you're a weakling."

"Oh, Sebastian. I can't believe you fell for that. You're so stupid, so gullible. It's a good thing you're handsome. You've got nothing else.

Not even a family, worthless wreck."

"SHUT UP! SHUT UP ALREADY! I KNOW I'M USELESS, I KNOW NO ONE LOVES ME, I KNOW I'M WEAK. I CAN'T EVEN KILL MYSELF, I KNOW HOW WEAK I AM."

Kathryn looks at me hesitantly, jaw half-dropped in terror and sadness, fear glistening in her beautiful eyes.

Eyes that I don't even deserve to look at.

"I'm so so sorry, I screwed up!" I whimper. "Just please forgive me."

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