In All Seriousness ~ A Fred Weasley FanFic

Chapter 29

TRIGGER WARNING:::: THIS UPDATE DEALS WITH EATING DISORDERS AND ALL THINGS RELEVANT!!!!!!!!!!! ALSO IT LITERALLY TOOK ME FIVE WHOLE FREAKING MINS TO SPELL THE WORD THROAT BC YA KNOW BEING DYSLEXIC (THE WORD DYSLEXIC ALSO TOOK MY ANOTHER FIVE MINS) IS FUN AS FUDGE

"Em, c'mon! We've got classes, you don't wanna be late do you?" Hermione shook me awake. I thought I had fallen asleep on the couch last night... someone must've brought me up here. I slowly pulled myself out of bed, "Yeah, yeah... I'm comin'" I said.

I changed out of my PJ's and I put on my uniform. Afterwards, I went into the bathroom and brushed my teeth and hair. I stared in the mirror. Ugly. Fat. I put my curls up into a messy bun for the day, too tired to actually do anything with it.

"Ready to head down for breakfast?" Sam asked, Hermione right behind her. "Yeah" I smiled, hiding the fact that my own body had made me lose my appetite.

We went downstairs and were joined by Ron, Harry, and the twins. "Good morning Em!" Fred greeted enthusiastically. "Good morning" I smiled sweetly.

We all walked down to the Great Hall. I sat myself in between Ron and Fred. I helped myself to a cup of pumpkin tea. "Aren't you gonna eat Emily? Normally you pig out like Ron" Harry chuckled. My stomach dropped. I was hungry. I hadn't eaten the night before and I knew I should eat. I smiled, "Nah, I'm not that hungry. I've got tea anyways, and I figured I shouldn't stuff myself first thing in the morning" I lied.

Why did I do that? I sighed mentally. I'll eat come lunchtime.

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I didn't eat come lunchtime. I didn't eat that dinnertime. I lied, said I had snacks and just drank water or pumpkin tea. I did so the next day, and the next day, and the next day...

I got out of bed, dreading having potions first thing in the morning with Professor Snape. Sighing, I wet over to mirror, before anyone was awake and did a body check. A body check had now become a regular thing. Not that I wanted to do it... it made me sick to look at myself, but I couldn't help it. I pinched at my sides, I turned my body, trying to see every angle.

I weighed myself... 7 and a half stone (around 106 pounds). Too much. I slipped on my uniform and brushed my teeth. Hermione had gotten up and so had Sam. I looked in the mirror again to do my hair, along side Sam. I decided today I would let my wavy curls fall down naturally today.

I waited for Hermione and Sam to finish getting ready, which didn't take too long. "I'm so not ready for Snape today" Sam said. "I don't mind the class, but Snape first ting in the morning... no thank you" Hermione complained on our way down to the Common's Area.

Per usual, the twins, Ron, and Harry were waiting for us. "Good morning Emmy!" Fred said. "Good morning Fred" I smiled softly. As we began to walk to the Great Hall, I noticed George nod to Fred. Fred then slowed down to my pace, letting the rest of the group head on without us.

"What's up Freddie?" I asked, looking up to him as we walked. "Are you okay?" he asked, abruptly. "Of course I am, how come?" I giggled, not knowing what he was going on about. "It's just... I don't know. I haven't seen you eat much lately... and I know you say you eat snacks and whatnot but... still... you seem paler and more tired recently I guess" he said tentatively. My insides churned. I put on a fake smile, "Oh come on Freddie, that's absurd. If you think I'm starving myself, you've obviously gone mad."

He sighed, "I guess you're right." I smiled, "See? Nothing to worry about!" I had finished my statement right as we had sat down at the table. I helped myself to a small cup of pumpkin tea. I noticed Ron eating a small berry pastry. My stomach growled. I wanted food... I needed food. Don't do it you fattie. You don't need that junk. But I wanted it. Just one wouldn't hurt.

I reached over and grabbed a small berry pastry and took a small bite. The texture on my tongue, the wonderful flavor. I finished it in four big bites. You fattie. Why did you do that? All of that work for nothing.

Once we were all finished eating, I quickly stood. "Er.. I'm going to go to the bathroom. I'll see you guys in Potions" I said to the ones in my year. I kept a regular walking pace until I was out of the Great Hall... then, I ran. I ran to the nearest bathroom, which thankfully, was empty.

I locked myself into the stall and shoved my hand down my throat, spilling the contents of this morning's breakfast into the toilet. I flushed it and stood up, breathing heavily. What I have I done? Good job, Emily. You'll thank me soon enough.

I looked in the mirror. I was scared. But, before I could get lost in my thoughts, I remembered Potions class. Quickly, I ran to the classroom, just barely making it before Snape walked in.

I quickly sat in my seat before I was officially late, earning a glare from my professor.

"Emily, what took so long?" Sam asked quietly. I had to make up and excuse... "I had to change my pad" I lied. She nodded in understandment.

As the lesson began, it become more and more hard to focus. Snape's deep, droning voice getting blander and blander with each word.

Knowing I shouldn't, I put my head down on my desk and fell asleep.

THWAP! The sound of a metal ruler hitting my desk woke up quickly. "East, there is no sleeping in my class. Ten points from Gryffindor and detention tonight. Five o clock, my office" Snape mumbled.

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