In All Seriousness ~ A Fred Weasley FanFic

Chapter 30

A/N: I'm back! I'm actually super siked to write this!! Im sorry for slow uploads, school is seriously going to be the death of me, lemme tell ya. Come after Valentine's day, I'll prolly be able to write more :)

ALSO: Trigger warning for anorexia, bulimia, and depression :):

EMILY'S P.O.V:

I made my way into the Great Hall and sat down in between Fred and Ron. I sighed, pouring myself a small cup of pumpkin tea. "What's the matter Em?" Fred asked, wrapping his arm around my shoulders. Butterflies took the usual place of hunger in my stomach.

I leaned my head onto his shoulder, taking in his sweet scent. I instantly felt a little more comfort. "I've got detention with Snape after dinner" I said, sounding all but pleased. "Awhh, did ickle Emmy get in twouble~" Fred cooed. I pouted, "Maybe..."

Our table erupted into a fit of giggles. I managed to drink half my pumpkin tea before standing up. "I think I'm gonna head over to the dungeons. Might as well get it over with" I said, grabbing my bag. "Awh good luck Em!" Fred called as I walked away. "Thanks!" I laughed.

As I was walking, I began to feel dizzy. I had been feeling dizzy a lot lately, so I was used to it. I made my way into the potion's room to find Snape seated at his desk. "Good evening Miss East" the potion's master spoke, every word sending a splitting pain to my headache. "Good evening Professor" I nodded, ignoring the pain.

"I would like you to organize my shelves please. All books in alphabetical order" he mused. I walked over to the shelves near his desk and sat down on the cold stone floor. I began sorting though the bottom shelf. I was exhausted, I needed sleep. Why do I need so much sleep? Because I'm lazy. I'm no good for anything. I'm weak... nothing.

Without realizing, the hours had passed. Snape cleared his throat as I had just set the last book onto the shelf. "Thank you Miss East, I expect you to pay more attention in my class from now on" he said in his infamous monotone voice. I nodded, "Of course sir."

I collected my things and made my way out of the classroom and into the Gryffinor Dorms. "How was detention?" Fred asked. I sat down on the sofa next to him. I shrugged, "Wasn't too bad... I'm quite tired though..." I said sleepily.

"Awh, why don't you head on up to bed?" Fred says sweetly. I nodded, getting up from the couch. I couldn't help but stumble from dizziness. Fred quickly got up and supported me. "Woah, woah, woah. Are you sure you're okay, Emily?" he asked, worried. I nodded, "Yeah, just lightheaded. I must've gotten up too fast" I smiled. He sighed, "Alright Em. G'night" he said as he lightly squeezed my shoulder, making me blush.

I made my way upstairs to my shared dorm. Luckily, everyone was asleep. I went into the bathroom and hopped onto the scale. 7 stone (100 pounds). Too much. You're fat! Why can't you get it through your thick skull! They never loved you. How could someone love someone so ugly... so gross? Stop! Please... You must learn, filth!

Tears silently fell as I walked over to my mirror. My stomach was flat, but not flat enough. I turned to see my back, my shoulder blades stood out, but not far enough. I sighed, changing into my pj's and hopped into bed.

I woke up the next day and put on my uniform, left my natural wavy curls down, and made sure I wore my tights underneath my skirt. For some reason, I've been feeling a lot colder recently.

"Ready Em?" the girls asked, waiting for me to go down for breakfast. We met up with the boys like usual and made our way to the Great Hall. I took my usual seat next to Fred and Ron. Fred looked to me, beaming. "What's up Fred?" I asked curiously. "Well," he said, taking a bite out of a jelly filled doughnut... oh how I wanted one. "I had talked to mum about what had happened and all and she told me that you can stay with us for the summers, holidays, and permanently!" he explained.

I couldn't help but let a wide smile accompanied by a blush creep across my face. I jumped up and embraced him into a hug. "Oh Freddy, thank you so so much! You don't know how much this means to me!" I cried. He let out a hearty laugh, "I'm so glad Em!"

"C'mon! Let's have a celebratory doughnut, everyone!" George cheered. My stomach dropped but I hid it with a smile. I apprehensively grabbed a doughnut. As everyone dug in, I just stared at it with fear in my eyes. "Em, whatcha waiting for?" Ron asked, taking a second doughnut for himself. I gave a forced chuckle and took a small bite of the doughnut to please the onlookers.

When my friends looked away, I quickly put it back in the box successfully. "Hey guys, I'm gonna go to the bathroom. I'll see ya in class" I smiled, getting up. "See ya, love" Fred smiled. I smiled back before dashing to the bathroom.

I made sure there was no one in there before I locked myself in a stall. I got down on my knees and repeated the ever so familiar routine of shoving my fingers down my throat, just to see vile spill into the toilet.

I flushed it down and slowly got up, making my way to class.

AN: Sorry for the short chapters my loves! You guys inspire me so much you really do and Im so glad I can share my works with you all. Soon I am to redo the beginning of this story bc my 15 year old self was stupid and my 17 year old self is smarter soooo yeah haha ill get rid of those plot holes here soon girdies haha but yeah i was originally gonna post this next week but i cant make u guys wait any longer. Ill try and post at least one every two weeks ir try to post more idk im so flipping busy ugh!

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