dear person who's in love

"i like girls"

It was Wednesday and Taehyung walked out of the random convenience store after buying some suppliers for his study day.

Ramen, Chocolate and a coke.

This was normal for Taehyung. Studying hard meant higher needs for sugar.

He stepped on to the train and sat down. It was half loaded with people, but one special person caught his attention.

Jk. He was sitting a few seats away from Taehyung, talking to Yoongi. He had his black leather jacket on instead of the dark blue jacket as their school uniform. Taehyung thought it was a weird combination but it fit Jk. A lot.

Right when Jk was looking down at his phone Taehyungs phone vibrated in his pocket.

unknown number

Hi Tae-hyung

Since the prom is this friday and we haven't prepared anything (literally)                         
i wanted to ask if you could meet us in the gym hall tomorrow                                          to prepare stuff with us and give us some tips etc.
we hope that you have time

Taehyung smiled at message from the freshman boy, he probably used a lot of time to formulate this. He texted back that he'll come.

He looked up and glanced at Jk who was still talking to Yoongi before he stepped out of the train.

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When Taehyung stepped into his room his friends were already settled down.

"Do you know where our key is?" he asked them with furrowed eyebrows.

"Taehyung, everyone hides their key under the pot by the front door" Ellie answered from his bed without looking away from the ceiling.

Jimin turned around in Taehyungs chair "guys you know what?" he asked exited.

Taehyung sighed at Ellie's earlier answer then placing his backpack on the floor and throwing himself beside Ellie in his bed "no what?"

"I've heard that Anna was caught smoking by the bleachers today" he squealed placing his hand on his mouth trying not to giggle.

The three of them didn't like Anna. She moved from Yongsan to their school this summer. She had blue hair and did a lot of stupid things.

"wow, im so surprised" Ellie answered sarcastic while turning around to lay on one of her elbows towards Taehyung and Jimin. She started to play with Taehyungs hair "how is jk doing?"

Taehyung thought about it, he knew what she meant. Him and Jk have had short conversations, greeted each other in the cafeteria. Oh and their surprisingly deep conversation about jk's father. Now it's like Jk is everywhere, everywhere Taehyung is.

"hmm nothing have really happened actually" he answered.

"well do you like him?" Jimin asked. Taehyung looked at him, he was not trying to tease him, he was actually curious.

That's why Taehyung liked his friends. They could make fun of everything and tease each other but also be serious when they needed to.

"i don't know, i mean we treat each other as friends, or i see him as a friend, i don't know how he treats his friends" he started. "yeah i don't know" he then finished.

"People say he doesn't date, like he did once and it did not go well, now he has dedicated his life to football" Jimin said which made Taehyung listen to him.

"Do you know if he's into girls or boys?" Ellie asked the question that Taehyung lowkey have thought about for a long time. She was still playing gently with his hazel brown hair.

"I think he doesn't care, like he knows when it s the right one?" Jimin tried putting all the info he had got from all over the school together.

" i like that" Ellie answered.

Jimin nodded and threw himself in between Ellie end Taehyung, so that all of them was laying on their backs and looking into the ceiling

"but what about you two? you guys have always talked about girls and dated girls, what changed?" Ellie asked.

Imagine if Taehyung came out? What would people think? Would they end their frendships he said he was into guys? Oh gosh what would his parents say?

"i'm not gay!" Taehyung said loud and sitting up.

"I did not say that you were gay" Ellie said calm looking at him.
He laid down and sighed "i like girls, i like boobs and stuff"

Jimin snorted at what Taehyung said. "It started when i got a crush on Taeyang in freshman year" he began

"He was a senior at that time right?" Ellie asked.

Taehyung didn't listen to the rest of their conversation about Jimins coming out story. The thought of him, Kim Taehyung liking men kept floating around in his mind. Sure Ellie and Jimin would accept it but everyone else? Like how does he even know that he liked men that way, like in the boyfriend love way? It just in the friend way hello?
So many things would change if he came out and stuff, but why would he if he's not into boys? why worry about it then?

Ellie and Jimin left an hour later. Leaving Taehyung alone in his bed.

He felt like someone punched him in his stomach. He did not think about that part with sexuality.

Why did they even talk about that? cause Jimin is gay? Taehyung didn't even tell his friends that he likes likes Jk, he's just a boy?

Taehyung sat up in his bed and looked around in his room. "i like girls" he whispered.

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author update

oooookay the last part of the chapter was kinda hard for me to write, cause i don't really know if that's on people who is questioning their sexuality's minds.

but that's for sure something i would think if i was in that situation (sorry if that sounded offensive idk how to say it) - im not gay, but im a HUGE supporter of LGBTQ

i hope something was right in the chapter or else let me knoww