dear person who's in love

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Taehyung woke up in Ellie's bed the next morning.

Last night was crazy.

After he had calmed down he started crying again.

The Taehyung he thought he was, straight, the one who makes out with random girls at parties , the who always admired pretty girls on the street, was into boys.

Jimin and Ellie didn't ask what was wrong or what happened. They just sat there beside him, all those hours.

He sat up in the bed, Jimin and Ellie were not there. The light from the big window lit the room up, he noticed that the sky was blue. He moved to the edge of the bed, wiping his eyes, and spotted himself in the big mirror on the other side of the room.

The blue shirt Ellie gave him yesterday was half unbuttoned and hung over his bare shoulder, his hair was all over the place and his eyes were awfully red and swollen.

"you're weak Taehyung" he mumbled. "crying over being gay, i thought you were better than that" he continued and standing up.

When he stepped out to the open living room and kitchen Jimin and Ellie danced around the living kitchen while making breakfast. Again it was a 80s song, this time Micheal Jackson 'the way you make me feel'

"morning sunshine" Jimin bobbing his head while placing eggs and bacon on a plate.

Taehyung smiled, oh Jimins irony.

"we made breakfast, come sit doown" Ellie announced from the dining table. 

Taehyung walked to the table and sat down while his friends portioned a meal for him.

"soo you have two choices" Jimin said with his mouth full of eggs.

"either we'll go out, buy new clothes, eat at a fancy place"

Taehyung snorted.

"OR" Ellie took over "we'll stay here, eat more ice cream, order a pizza, watch movies that YOU like and maybe talk if you want" Ellie said looking at Taehyung while saying the last part. Of course his friends were worried and dying to know why Taehyung all of a sudden turned into depressed sheep.

Taehyung chewed his food and sank it "i love you both so much but i think i'll go home and think about everything"

Both of his friends looked disappointed by Taehyungs choice "are you sure? I mean we don't have to talk about it, if you don't want to" Jimin tried.

Taehyung stood up "im fine, i just need to think alone, you two could go to the mall without me, its totally fine, im fine"

"Yeah when you say it like that it doesn't sound super convincing but i guess we'll let you go home" Ellie said also standing up and looked at Jimin who stood up too.

"But if anything and i mean ANYTHING comes up, or you want to talk about it, you call us and we'll come right away, alright?" Jimin said loud while pointing at Taehyung with wide eyes.
"yeah yeah sure" Taehyung answered smiling.

He packed all his stuff from the day before and left Ellie's apartment around noon. He walked to the train station, with his earphones in , completely in his own world.

He couldn't help to think back to the time where he met Jungkook the first time when he sat the exact same seat as that day. Jungkook meant nothing to him then and now he makes Taehyung question his sexuality and give him all these different fucking feelings?

Maybe Taehyung was overthinking. Maybe these thoughts will go away and the cry session last night was just a reaction? They probably will...

Taehyung unlocked the door to his house, it felt like ages ago since he last was there. His parents was at work like they normally were at Saturdays. He walked upstairs and threw himself on his bed.
What a messy weekend that hasn't even started.