dear person who's in love

pretty gay!

Last night was something.

Taehyung was not sure if it was amazing or fantastic.

They made out a long time. Randomly pushing each other around to top. Actually Tae didn't mind being bottom cause Jungkook had this kind of control over him that made him loose all top power.

They continued until both of them were out completely out of breath. Jungkook plopped down beside Taehyung on the king size bed.
"Being gay isn't maybe that bad" Taehyung mumbled which made Jungkook snort.

Jungkook turned towards Taehyung resting his head in his palm "you know, you don't have to think about the sexuality part yet right?" he said, just like he'd heard all of Taehyungs inner debates the whole weekend.

"What do you think about this? like do you consider yourself gay cause we made out?"

"I could be gay, i could be straight, i don't know, but i'll find out" Jungkook said smirking a bit leaning in to kiss Taehyung.
Taehyung kissed him back , one of those short nice kisses.

Then Taehyung rolled down from the bed to stand up "okay i'll go out, you count to 60 and then you can go out" he said as he walked out of the door, he heard Jungkook mumbling 'cute' behind him. He smiled and walked back to the living room.
People probably wondered where he'd been. In that short about time he almost had sex with a girl and made out with a guy. Wow what a night.

On his way through the kitchen he snapped a random cup poured some beer in it.

"Ayy tae, help me win this stupid game" Jackson yelled from the dinning table, with a ping pong ball in his hand.

Taehyung laughed at his friend then deciding to join him.

The party went on, Taehyung got pretty drunk, dancing around and laughing a lot with all of his favorite people. He saw Jungkook a few times during that night but chose not to react in any type of way.

Right when Taehyung was talking to Ellie, Elias approached them. Taehyung waited for that lame comment from Elias about Ellie and then her normal unsympathetic answer.

But instead he said: "Ellie... can we talk?" He looked at her with calm eyes. Ellie glanced at Taehyung "its alright, i know a few people at this party" he joked. He watched Ellie follow Elias down the hallway.

What happened with these two?? Taehyung was too busy with his own love story that he completely oversaw Ellie's.
He turned around and noticed Jimin standing with Yoongi in the kitchen, both of them laughed out loud and lightly hit each other.

AND JIMIN'S?

Taehyung promised himself a long time ago that he would be there for his friends when they experienced their first real love. But now he's just standing here finding out that they did it all by themselves?

"Gosh im a terrible friend" he mumbled.
"Yep and a ugly one too" someone said behind him.

Taehyung turned around and saw Baekhyun standing in front of him smiling.
"Baek! How are you?" He asked hugging his old friend.
"Ah you know, cheerleading, school, and now i have that garbage bag with me all the time" he said pointing at Chanyeol who was currently trying to do push ups with four cups of alcohol placed around his firm back.

Taehyung nodded while smiling.

- -

Taehyung slowly opened his eyes feeling like someone pulled out his brain, stepped on it a few time then put it back and left it like that.

Guess it was hangover day.

surprisingly he ended up in his own bed not remembering the process. "wow im good" he said to himself impressed.

He checked the time on his phone then noticing the messages on instagram.

He went to the app figuring people tagged him in photos from last night. He remembered that those people didn't do that stuff, when he saw the red circle on direct.

Jeonjk97

jeonjk97: yk we made out last night so i was wondering if i could get your number?

kthtiger: haha

jeonjk97: please its awkward to talk on instagram

kthtiger: ur right

kthtiger: ### ####

Unknown number

: hello

: who's this?

: 40 year old man who's looking for a serious relationship:-D

: what do you look for in a partner?

: definitely a person who could cook, and give me lots of love when everything goes wrong:-D

: im vegan

: that's totally alright, i have a big fat belly, so healthy food and lots of activities at home would be great;-D

: ew jungkook

JK: what? i would be down for that kind of relationship

: hahah

JK :anyway i didn't get to say to you that i enjoyed last night

: sounds like we had sex

JK : im serious

: i enjoyed it too

: shit i have to go to football practice, see u round

: byeee

Taehyung turned off his phone and let his head fall back into his pillow. What he's really in love with this guy?

He got up, took a shower and used rest of the day in front of his computer making the rest of his bio notes and studying for the test they had Tuesday.

He ended up on a blank google search page. Typing ' am i gay?' but deleting the words again.

Why was Taehyung so afraid? Because he would end actually being gay? but what if he's straight? what about the feelings he had for Jungkook then? were they just fake?

did he want them to be fake?

He wrote it again and clicked search.

He automatically clicked on the first link, which was a buzzfeed test.

How big are the odds that this test probably made by frustrated gays would decide Taehyungs sexuality?

he did the test - kinda weird questions but still he gulped when he saw the answer.

You got: Pretty Gay! it said.

He stood up "yay, im gay" and hit himself in the head.

What if Taehyung actually wanted to be gay? Was is that bad when you like someone already?

Taehyung remembered what Jungkook said to him the night before "you know, you don't have to think about the sexuality part yet right?"

He was right. Taehyung didn't have to make that decision now.