It was suddenly freezing. Taehyung walked to the fence around the edge of the hill.
They probably put it there so people wouldn't throw themselves out when others leave them on the hill.
Taehyung really wanted to throw himself down the hill right now.
He kissed a guy.
and he liked it.
NO, Taehyung was 100 percent sure that he liked girls, just as he liked Solar in Kindergarten, and Jisoo, Seulgi and Somi in grade school, Shuhua in highschool but then Jungko-
NO not Jungkook, he's a guy, he likes football, and not art nor reading or Taehyungs friends?
"its just probably a one day crush" Taehyung said to himself when he walked down the hill hugging himself because of the cold.
"but why the heck did you kiss him Taehyung? that's definitely not normal" he asked himself out loud.
"I don't freakin know, he looked really good, and it felt right?" he answered.
"That doesn't mean you could just kiss the boy?" he snapped back at his own answer.
"I mean...Jungkook kissed back" he defended himself from himself.
"i know right, it was soo good" he then squealed.
"yess he's really a good kisser" Taehyung added.
He stopped walking "why am i talking to myself?" he asked.
" i need help" he said to himself.
He got his earphones out from his pocket and attached them his phone, it lit up in the dark, he noticed all the messages he had received without realizing.
4 unread messages from Jimin
1 missed call from Jimin
Chim_Chim tagged you in a photo from memeworld's account
2 unread messages from Ellie
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he ignored half of the messages, but called Jimin.
He picked up the phone faster than Taehyung thought "Hiiiii how was your first prom?" he laughed through the phone.
Taehyung laughed in a fake way. "It was alright, why did both of you call me?" he asked, assuming that Jimin was still in Ellie's apartment. He could hear voices in the background probably from the tv.
"oh we just wanted to ask if you could bring some ice cream on your way back to us" Jimin said, which made Taehyung roll his eyes at his friends, why didn't it surprise him. "Who says im going back to you two?"
"eh we do?" Ellie's voice suddenly came from the speaker of Taehyungs phone.
"PPlease" Jimins voice came back, putting extra pressure on the P like he always did.
to be honest Taehyung didn't know what he wanted right now. But ice cream sounded good.
"alright, i'll buy it for yall" he said and smiled at Jimin's 'yay' and Ellie's tired "thank god"
He hung up and put in his earphones and listened to music as he walked to the train station.
That night was weird. Or Taehyung had a great night but it ended too fast and undone in some way.
Now Taehyung just wanted to forget what happened.
Everybody has to try to kiss the same sex sometime in their life, don't they?
It not that bad, like Jungkook won't tell anybody.. Or Taehyung really hoped so.
sHiT what if he tells the whole school, then Taehyung would automatically be gay, HOLY SHIT. What will people say? What if he looses all of his friends then his grades will drop then he won't get into college then he can't get a real education then he'll never get a job then he'll become an alcoholic or drug addict then he'll die in age of 36 of lung cancer or a liver failure WHAT THE FUCK.
THAT CAN'T HAPPEN.
"im not gay, why am i overreacting this much? im not gay, why am i overreacting this much? im not gay" Taehyung said to himself as he started to take bigger steps. His heart started beating faster and his body started to heat up.
yo am i getting a heart attack or something, he thought.
He soon reached the station, he walked faster that he thought. He stepped into little convenience store beside the stairs down to the trains.
He nodded to the elder woman, probably around her 60s, who was sitting behind the disk, knitting something. He went straight to the freezers, man he had bought ice cream here a lot, here was Jimin's ,Ellie's and his favorite ice creams.
He opened the freezers reached out for three different buckets of ice cream, then walking to the elder lady to pay.
She smiled at him while scanning in the buckets.
"do you like being gay?" she asked while looking up at him.
"excuse me?" Taehyung stared at the woman.
"how would you like to pay?" she repeated smiling at his confused face.
"oh, oh just credit" he answered looking down at his shoes in embarrassment.
The woman placed the buckets of ice cream in a white plastic bag "that will be 13.000 won"
"yeah" Taehyung answered low placing his card on the credit box.
She placed receipt in the bag and handed it to Taehyung "everything will be alright, dear" she said when he took the bag. He looked up at her and gave her a little smile.
everything will be alright
everything will be alright
the words flew around Taehyungs head all the way to Ellie's apartment building. He greeted Clint before stepping into the elevator.
He hit the 8th floor button and flinched by the chorus of I Wanna Dance With Somebody by Whitney Houston which played out of the speakers.
♫ I wanna dance with somebody ♫
He just stood still, staring at himself in the mirror on the wall.
What's wrong with me, he thought.
♫ I wanna feel the heat with somebody♫
his head hurt.
♫Yeah, I wanna dance with somebody♫
he could somehow still feel Jungkook's lips on his.
♫With somebody who loves me♫
The elevator opened and he walked to Ellie's door. He stood there for a while, just staring at nothing or, the floor to be exact.
The door in front of him slowly opened. Jimin and Ellie stood on the other side looking at him. He was still staring at the floor.
They slowly pulled him inside the apartment. He kicked his shoes off and threw his jacket in the corner. Jimin followed him to Ellie's room while Ellie was getting spoons for their ice cream.
They both sat in front of Taehyung in Ellie's bed. "are you okay tae?" Jimin asked in a calm voice.
Then Taehyung cried.
He never cried.
All of his feelings just busted out. He was not sure why he cried. Because he was happy? Because he was confused? Because he was miserable?
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