Diana: 4 months in the UK

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Song of the chapter: Love The Way You Lie by Eminem ft Rihanna. 

His hands are strong and dominant over my weak ones. He grips my wrists with all the power of the world while his eyes kill my soul from the inside out. A quick rush of fear spreads over my body like a virus as he moves closer to me. Is he going to lash out on me in a hospital elevator? Is he going to break me and every inch of innocence left inside of me? Thoughts swirl through my mind and passes the time quite quickly before his lips collide into mine. 

I don't react as quickly as I would like to. He moves them against mine with all he has. Why is he kissing me? Shouldn't he be angry at me? Shouldn't he be raging and telling me how worthless I am? This is all too confusing. This whole road with Michael has been a confusing one. One minute things are great, the next they are coming down like the Titanic. He pulls away after a few seconds and looks into me. 

"Please Diana. I need you and I don't want to fight with you. Please." His green eyes are exposed and shine with shear guilt from the last 5 minutes. His words are enough for me to give into him one last time. 

His lips mould into mine once again. They feel rough and dry compared to Calum's moist ones but spark that fire that was there that night of the party. I run my fingers through his highlighted hair as he detaches his lips from mine to my neck. 

His kisses ignites every button of pleasure in body; my body is crying out to him in so many ways. I am panting. Exhaling the remaining pieces of my disappointment in him and inhaling this lust that spills through the air. He pulls away to pause the elevator before returning to me. 

He gives me a sly smile that seeps through my brain. I can't resist him. He is all I want right now and I can not deny. He brings the dangerous element to this relationship that I shouldn't crave so much. It is the first relationship I've ever had and some might judge me for my light headedness but I really don't care. 

Meanwhile Michael is giving me kissing that make my lips swollen with desperation. I become lost in him. Lost in his touch, his breath and his body. My hands trace his lower back while his transfer to my neck. The touch is enough to send me to heaven and exhilarates my existing worries. 

"Baby." He huffs. "You're not angry anymore are you?" I nod, only wanting him to stop talking and to continue giving me this euphoria feeling through my veins. He smiles, as if he job had been done. "Good." He brings me into another passionate kiss and works his hands to my mounds. I gasp in shock that startles the both of us. 

"Don't worry baby. Just let me relieve some stress for you." He coos. I push away my doubts and let him continue. He continues to kiss my neck. His tongue occasionally slips out and runs over my bare skin. My mind spins out of control as he holds them in his hands. I've never had this much contact with one person in my life. 

His lips against my neck has never felt so good but so wrong at this time. How can he so much power over me? How can I let him distract my mind with one kiss? I don't know what is going on but I know that I don't want it to stop. 

I feel like my ovaries are about to explode and my consciousness is going to make me do something that I will regret. I push back my conscious and decide to give him a little piece of my mind. 

Our slow, desperate kiss has transformed into a fast, passionate one that I don't want to end. My free hands automatically stroke his rough jawline and into his rainbow coloured hair. The way he leans onto me against the wall has me in chains that I am bound to. No matter how many times I try to move, he puts me in my place and forces me to stay for more. 

The sweetness of his tongue against mine sends endorphin's to my brain which is sure to make me die right in his arms. I'm not too sure if I can compare this kiss with Calum and I's but I can say that it is definitely one worth a heart attack. As much as I would love to carry on, I have to put an end to this before someone really needs to use the elevator and will open it up to two crazy teens.

I slow down the kiss, just how I like it. Slow and steady. He lets me control it and I love that.  The sound of our lips moving as one echos into the small space. reminding me just how alone we are. I pull away and look into those green light eyes which capture my attention from the start. 

He rests his forehead against mine. "I'm sorry." He breathes onto me. 

"I'm sorry too." 

"It's okay, baby." His new nickname for me makes my stomach explode but he doesn't know that. 

"Can we start over? No more secrets." I raise an eyebrow, hoping he will agree with me because I would rather not be caught up in drama. 

"Yeah, that would be good." I feel relief flood into my bloodstream. "But, can you promise me something?" And that relief is overshadowed by nervousness. 

"Yeah, what is it?" I bite my tongue. 

"Can you promise me that you won't do what you did to me? You won't go around kissing Calum or any other guy? And, jeez. I know this is a long shot and I totally understand that you share a room with the guy but could you maybe keep your distance from him?" 

"Mikey, you know I can't promise that. He's my best friend." 

"Well how else can I trust you not to go around kissing him or any other guy in the house? I mean, you share a room with him. For all I know, you could be sleeping in the same bed as him." 

"You know that I wouldn't do that. Do you really think I would do that to you?" 

"Well I don't know what to think after you kissed him." He hisses on the word him and I feel that same guilt fall upon my chest. I take his face in my hands and run my fingers along his cheeks. 

"I know. I'm sorry. I guess I can try for you." Did I really just choose my boyfriend over my bestfriend? 

"Thank you, baby." His eyes shine with adoration and appreciation. He presses the elevator button and it resumes to original course. I come into a Michael Clifford embrace and exhale heavily. How am I supposed to break the news to my bestfriend that I can't spend time with him anymore? The elevator doors open and release me into the air that will never be the same again. What have you gotten yourself into Dee? 

I am sorry I didn't update the day after my last update but I had to study for exams and yeah. Enjoy this update. A filler with some smut? What should be smut anyway but yes, it is a little explicit. Will update soon too and expect some stuff to happen <3 Thank you for 6K reads! I love you all!!