Fell in love with a spy-mirage fanfiction (1) ✔️

Chapter 15| dead?!

I couldn't get my eyes off of her. For what seemed minutes, I have been looking at her. She had killed her self and it's my fault she killed herself. Besides I felt horrible for all of this, she also took a lot of information into her grave. Something I would never retrieve again. I grabbed the white blanket off the double bed and covered her before picking her up, taking her back to my alt-mode.

I drove off, driving straight back to base. I gazed at my right, I couldn't believe she actually shot herself. I thought she was bluffing. She's even able to shot herself to keep secrets safe.
I shook my head, trying to brush off the mix off feelings I had. So many things flew thought my mind. Worry, anger, grief and sadness. I was mostly angry with myself for doing something without her knowledge. I drugged her, I ruined everything.

At the base I came to a stop. I hopped out and took Cat's corpse with me. I had no idea what tell people, I am still upset about it too.

"I couldn't safe her..." I said, walking into the medbay. Ratchet and jolt turned towards us while I laid the corpse down. "She killed herself..." I whispered. Ratchet removed the blood stained blanket from her face. "Jeez..."
"I tried to stop her, we fought for the gun. She shot me and shortly after that, she shot herself. It's all my fault..."

I stepped back "I called in Optimus and Lennox," the medic said. I stepped back, trembling. "Are you okay?" Jolt asked, looking at my shoulder. I was so upset I didn't even feel the pain. "No..." I mumbled. He gave me a sympathetic look. "We knew she was going to do it one day, it's not your fault. She couldn't handle the pressure and pain," jolt said. "It's not making me feel any better, I feel horrible..." I whispered.

I gazed at the door as Optimus and Lennox walked. "What's so important? I was having a very important meeting," Lennox said, halting as he saw me. "What happened?" He asked. "I tried to safe her! We fought for the gun and she shot me before she shot herself. She was dead instantly... she killed herself."

I looked at the corpse behind me. There fell a tensed silence while Lennox and Optimus walked up to her. "She was the only one... who was able to solve some cases. She had information no one else had..." Lennox said, looking at me. "I tried to safe her! I swear! I tried to safe her!" I said desperately. "She shot me, and shot herself. I wouldn't kill her! I need her too."

"We aren't saying you killed her, Dino," Optimus said. "Bring her to the mortuary," Optimus finally said. Ratchet nodded and covered her up with the white and blood stained blanket again.
I had to leave and Jolt stitched me. The bullet went straight through my shoulder. Optimus told me to rest but I couldn't think about something else. All that popped up in my head is; 'I killed her...'

Cat never wrote anything down, everything was locked up in her head. She had tremendously much knowledge about kind of everything. Some cases couldn't be solved without her. I sighed, burying my face in my hands. I screwed or up, she's dead because of me. She's gone...

I got up, walking over to the meeting room.
The first thing when I walked in was a slap across my cheek. Startled, I stumbled back. Mearing was glaring at me. "Her blood in on your hands!" She spat out. It's not making me feel any better.
Optimus came between us, "it's not his fault. Cat has had a mental breakdown before. The pressure was too much," he stated. I sat down, fiddling with the zipper of my leather jacket. I had never felt so horrible and defeated as now.

"You want to explain what happened?"

Meanings voice snapped me out of my thoughts. "I found her in a motel and she was upset, I tried to talk to her but she aimed a gun at her head. We fought for the gun and she shot me just before she shot herself. I tried to safe her! Not kill her!" I snapped the last part. "Do you even know this is a huge disaster!" She spat out. "She meant a lot for me too! Even she was pushing me away, I saw her as my friend and all I wanted was to help her. I know I have made the wrong choices... but I did it because I wanted to help her!"

"You pushed her! Your job was to keep an eye on her and prevent her from killing herself! Now you caused her death!" Mearing sneered, slamming her fist on the table. "I agree, she was mentally unstable and aggressive, but she was a good spy! We still need her!" She sneered. "I know I was wrong, don't make me feel even guiltier!" I snapped.

"You are useless without Cat..."

The words actually hurt me. She just said a human soy is better then me. She was the one that forced me to be Cat's superior. It was all her idea and later on, Optimus and Lennox asked me too! It's not fair. I am a good spy too, I am the last spy at the base right now.

Ratchet walked in, his face betrayed there was something wrong. Mearing glared at the medic, crossing her arms. "I am sorry to interrupt... but have you called someone to pick up Cat's corpse?" He asked. I got up with a hiss "you didn't even let me say goodbye!" I spat out angrily. "Because I haven't called anyone!" Mearing sneered back.

"Then who called?"

"What do you mean?" I muttered, sitting back down. "Her corpse is gone..."