Every Little Reason | BTS

2 | Vodka and Her

[ Seoul ]

K i m  T a e h y u n g

I quaffed on the Vodka and let the bottle hung loosely around my fingers. A bitter smile slowly stretched across my lips as I marveled upon the color of the dark sky that had softened to blue.

Closing my eyes, I listened to the musical silence of the dawn on the balcony. In the serenity of dawn, my lifeless soul could hear the melody ricocheted on that particular day so clearly, so vividly...

The melody of Jinhee's soft cries.

"Everything has never been the same after you left, Jinhee..." I breathed out those words as I lazily leaned on the railing of the balcony.

"Yoongi hyung couldn't sleep so well now. He lays down on the couch, but in his hand, was a picture of you and him. He keeps looking at the picture and sometimes I could see tears in his eyes. He said he missed calling you ugly bunny... But now, he can't call anyone with that name anymore."

I forced out a smile at the thought of Yoongi hyung. Sometimes he looked like he was so in love with the picture of Jinhee and him that I felt the unnecessary jealousy, but I tried to overlook past it. Maybe he just really missed her, like everyone else did.

"Our maknae? He has stopped playing Overwatch, because he said it hurts when everything only reminded him of you. He missed playing Overwatch, with you sitting beside him, asking him random questions and annoyed him. Sometimes, he would sniff on your stuffed bunny and cry out alone. You're his only noona, Jinhee-ah."

I gulped another shot of the drink and slightly laughed at how pathetic I sounded like. What was I even saying? Was I trying to guilt-trip her so that she would come back?

"Jiminie? Ah, that guy has become so thin now. Most of the time, he will say that he doesn't have the appetite to eat. He has stopped working out too. He said you'd usually sit on his back while he does push up, and because of that, he has stopped."

My eyelids became heavy as I thought of the muted Jimin. He wasn't the usual hyper Jimin anymore, I was worried about him. But despite all that, it hurt to see him trying so hard to make everyone happy, even though he was hurting miserably inside.

"Hoseok hyung doesn't smile so often now. Sometimes, I saw him crying in the dance studio. He said he missed showing his new choreography to you and do silly dance with you."

I laughed deeply as I remembered the memories of Jinhee blushing whenever we teased her cute dance moves. She was cute. Everything about her.

"Namjoon hyung doesn't seem happy. He keeps sighing when things didn't work out well for us. Things have been hard with Soojung too. He would lock himself in his studio and I'd hear his soft sobs. He said he missed making music with you and making fun of your rapping, Jinhee-ah."

I sipped on the alcohol again, but this time my vision turned blurry. Or was I crying? I don't know. I couldn't see anything but only Jinhee in the old film of my mind.

"Jin hyung has lost all his calm. Sometimes, he would get emotional because of our dance practice. Suzy tried to console him but since she's a physician now, she can't always be there for him. Because of that, Jin hyung would silently cry his heart out. Back then, you were always there for him whenever he messed things up. He missed talking with you about his new recipes, but now... he never cooked anymore."

I became emotionless as I looked upon the beautiful moon hung on top of the sky. Over the bright moon, I saw Jinhee let out a smile at me. It was her sad smile—the one that would break my heart into pieces and I just wanted to hug her right then and there.