Sympathy but it's from CallMeKevin

6

"Hey, you alive?" My vision blurred, feeling like I was spinning in a circle. There's a part of my eyes wouldn't comprehend some of my vision so the darkness overcame me. Raising my hand to my forehead of started to brush up and down with my fingertips to try to soothe the banging in my head. I wasn't allowed to move, as I was trying to figure out what was going on in the first place. "I'm coming in," Kevin's voice was muffled from the door, but it's slowly open. Taking a glance at him, he look like he was ready to go somewhere. "I'm hungry, you gotta be, and we're out of food." He grinned, walking in closer slowly of course.

With all of the soft gestures that he was doing, I don't think I was feeling anything better. I felt like I was a animal ready to strike him, and it didn't make me feel like a real human the part of the human race. I just felt like I was left out, and to be honest... the moment that it happened... I was...

"Please, I just want you to eat... we can get take out." Kevin kneeled down closer to me, making more eye contact with me because I barely even move during the bed. "How about something unhealthy?"

I don't feel like it, I really didn't want to go outside yet. Although I've never even wanted to go outside in the first place, my lack of words made Kevin scoot in closer. Setting his hand on the bed, he tried to getting closer to me with a smile but unfortunately nothing was going to work. He looked so calming, but my body's natural reaction kicked in as I covered the blanket over my face.

Kevin's body popped with him slowly getting up, as a heavy breath escaped him. His footsteps were leaving, but stopped before it got further. It was silent in the room, and I was too scared to look. He didn't leave but he wasn't talking.

The silence starting to dig into my fears and I didn't know what to do. Why was he doing this? Was he just staring at me?

"No," his voice broke the tension rising inside of me, "I can't just leave..." Kevin's feet followed behind as he came in closer. He stopped next to me, kneeling down yet again. "Its been days, you need to go outside... I don't want you to be in here by yourself." Kevin mumbled, as my blanket was slowly pulled off by myself. "I don't see you outside of the room unless you go to the bathroom, you're as quiet as a mouse, and you eaten small than a mouse would in a day!" Kevin's voice grew deeper as his facial expression changed as he looked... angry. "You need to get out, I keep telling myself that you'll get out when you want to but you're scaring me!" Kevin argued, his voice... he was starting to yell at me.

"Kevin... I...I'm sor-"

"No! You fecking just don't care what im trying! You haven't noticed once that I made it where I could let you walk around the house! I closed the blinds and the windows, it's been so depressing in here!"

Kevin started to yell at me, as my eyes started to burn and I slowly sunk deeper into my bed. My breathing shortened.

"I keep trying and you just ignore me! You can talk to me!" Kevin tried to explain as I started to cover my ears so I wouldn't listen to this, I don't want to, I couldn't! I knew I was already a failure he didn't have to tell me about it when it's been in my head this entire time I've been here. "And for Christ's sake, get out of that blanket!" He started to pull away the blanket.

My sense of logic dropped as I started to scream. "No! Stop!" I screamed, backing away from him, seeing his eyes go from annoyed to confused. "Leave me alone!" I slowly started to sit on my behind instead and raise my legs to him to start wanting to kick him. Get him away from me!

No!

"Wait, wait!" Kevin dropped the blanket, bringing his hands up for defense and grabbing onto my legs as my heart stopped a beat.

Was this the thing I feared? I keep telling myself that Kevin would never do it to me, would he? "Please!" I screamed, trying to get him off of me. "I promise I'll be better! Don't do this!" I begged, sobbing and grabbing onto my shirt and tugging it down to cover my area. "I'll be better, just don't hurt me!" As I slowly started to give up, having his hands quickly let go.

Pushing away from me, I pulled my legs into my chest and form a ball. I covered my head as the last time I was getting slapped and hit in the back of my head. Kevin didn't touch me again, but seemed to be trying to string a sentence.

"Just... d-don't cut me..." I started to huff and cry harder.

"No, I won't...!" Kevin's voice was a lot softer than before, not as aggressive or as angry in the way he was. "I just-I... I would never..." Kevin started to back away and getting further. "Please, forgive me..." His voice broke as he started to rush out of the room and spam the door behind him.

Senses replaced my poor judgement, and I looked around, my heart calming.

What did I just do...?