Sympathy but it's from CallMeKevin

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Kevin took himself into his room and locked the door, as I went mine and just felt myself slowing down and falling back into myself. My stomach pinches and my eyes burned from crying harder than most times. My knees were weak and my hands went numb as I couldn't feel any thing but a sunken heart in my chest like someone was squeezing it and pulling it down.

I wanted to vomit.

The blood was oozing from my wrist and the bandages were getting soaked because of it. It was hanging off the side of the bed so there would be no blood on the sheets. There was just the feeling of... shame. Kevin's actions were enough to say it all. He hated me. I was getting better and I ruined it by just... ugh. Why did I have to do it...

With my legs trembling it was getting to the point where I couldn't fall asleep. Looking outside I saw it was raining, Kevin must've opened the curtains earlier today... streaks of rain rushed down the window as it was rhythmic with the water hitting on it. It felt like I was dizzy, yet grounded.

Probably due to be the fact that I was extremely upset right now, and it didn't help that Kevin really didn't like me right now.

Has my body slowly started to get up, staring outside the window, it just said only wanted to break down and fall on top of the bed again. I wasn't ready to move, and I know it wasn't the like a blood in my body, it was just the pure amount of frustration and me not being determine enough.

My body slowly started to curl up into a little ball, as my eyes over flooded with water and I started to cry out again. The burning on my wrist was so apparent, every time I moved it felt like my skin was losing its grip on itself. I push my face in the pillow, as I started to cry even harder, I don't know what to do anymore.

I felt something, on my waist, and I quickly jumped up and looked at whatever it was. Kevin...

"Are you... okay?" Kevin slowly started to sit down right beside me, as I started to sit up right next to him. Kevin looked tired, and depressed.

Instead of talking, I just slowly wrapped my arms around him and pulled him into a hug. I know it was something that I didn't really do, and I didn't really plan to, but it was something that was needed for me at least. Kevin's hands gently placed on my back, as I flinched around he pulled back but I just held him tighter. He slowly started to embrace me into a hug, as my cries slowly started to dissipate.

"Kevin... I-I'm so sorry..." I choked on my whaling.

"...please never do that... ever again." Kevin asked calmly.

"I won't ever, I p-promise..."