Sympathy but it's from CallMeKevin

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"Kevin... when you took me into your home... I was having doubts about everything... of course. I didn't know how to feel about being around any type of guy, or any person of that matter." I started to move to the edge of the bed and swing my legs over the edge to have Kevin do the same next to me. "I didn't want to trust you."

Kevin held onto my hand with both of his, looking into my eyes. "I didn't want you to be unsaved so I wanted to invite you over, I would never ever do anything to you. I know what you went through, but I can't say I felt it." Kevin looked to the ground, but I started to swell up with water and I could barely feel myself. "It's not a comfortable feeling knowing that I watched, but I had to... to see that you were okay..."

It was a horrible feeling to be reminded that he was watching the whole thing, he knew what I was doing during that oh, and he could see my struggles because I know that I was in friend for it. I never looked into the footage because I do not want to relive the moment. Scooting closer to his body, I couldn't deny myself that my brain told me to do this, it was a natural instinct.

"Kevin..." I started, looking into his eyes. "I-I..." My voice caught onto itself, struggling to form a sentence because I didn't even know myself what to say. I just wanted to say something to him, something caring, something endearing, but I don't know what to say. "You're..." trying to form a sentence with nothing, I struggled with it, something had to be said. No, something had to be done.

Moving closer to him I wrapped myself around his arm, not wanting to hug him... but wanting to show him more then just a handheld moment.

Kevin seemed surprised, his eyes lightning up as I rested my head on his shoulder just a bit. None of the least, he seemed very surprised about it. I can't lie that I was surprised too, but it's not like I haven't been wanting to for a while now. He slowly moved his hand on top of mine, letting me be reassured that this was okay.

A faint flash of burning  Happened in my eyes, before I knew it something was rolling down my face. My eyes watered, blurred, started crying in desperation of human contact. I've been wanting this for so long, but I couldn't do anything about it because I'm so scared to do it.  Kevin let me bury my face inside of his the chest, has he let me hug him harder.

Kevin slowly started to lay backwards onto the bed, letting. us both rest up easily.  my own breaths covered the room silence, as I started to take the shorter Brakes to breathe. I really needed this, and I would hug him but I can't force myself.