Sympathy but it's from CallMeKevin

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The walk outside was pleasant, the people stayed away from me and no one followed. It was... relaxing even without Kevin. Its not something I can fix overnight but if I can go from only being around Kevin and feeling comfortable to being on my own and surviving I was fine. That was not only for Kevin to get me away from him, but to test my own bravery in the situation that I haven't done in a while.

As I took off my shoes and set them near the door, I took a breath.

Kevin was soon rushing over as I looked to him. "Where were you?" Kevin asked, seemingly worried about me.

"I was out, you didn't want me here-"

"I do," Kevin started. "But I don't want you rushing out. You had me on edge where you were."

He was right, even though I was out for myself, it was a really mean thing I could do without telling him. I just didn't want to interrupt him, and I needed my own headspace. "I'm sorry."

Kevin approached me, setting his palm on my face and dragging his fingers to my chin. "It's okay, I'm proud of you but please... tell me." He brought himself closer to me.

"Kevin... I do want to be with you..."

He jumped, and looked into my eyes. "I'm not sure what to do." His hands dragged to my shoulders. "I have liked you for while, but it happened... and I didn't want to pressure you."

"I can take it!" I stood on my toes and tried to get him to take me seriously. "You have been with me when I needed you.... and I realized how much I needed you... how much I wanted you." I grabbed his hands, slowly moving them. "I'm happy with you." I said placing his hands on my waist. "I feel comfortable with you." Kevin's hands clutched into my waist, roughly but as if he was waiting to see if I was real. "Do you... want me to be with you?"

Kevin brought me closer to him, pressing his lips on mine. Kevin's lips were soft and I wrapped my arms around his neck, feeling him leaning in on me and not letting go. This felt, so safe to me. Kissing a man, having myself be in his arms, not with force but with my own intention.

He lifted his hand to my face and cupped my cheek as I brought myself deeper into into his touch. This... was nice to me, I wanted it.

Kevin slowly pulled away, as my lips followed into his until we parted. I breathed in, feeling myself pressed against him. "Kevin... I... really like you." I said calmly.

"I like you too, but I don't want to force you to do anything you don't like." Kevin smiled.

Pressing my lips against him, I smiled shyly. I released it faster then the first time. "I'm better now, you've helped me." I hugged him. "Thank you."