Sympathy but it's from CallMeKevin

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Without my media presence, my whole Community started to fall apart on me. A lot more toxicity floated around, more blame about why I decided to leave without saying anything. I was spotted in one of those stores, definitely away from where I lived, so it wasn't even a good thing that I was spotted; from then the trade finding me and what was happening. I didn't want to talk about it, and I didn't really want them to be investigating the news.

Kevin sat beside me on the couch, carefully putting his arm behind me but on the couch. My phone was being stared at by me completely, hunched over and the light shining on my face. Kevin seemed interested in what I was doing just for my safety, knowing that I wasn't going to be blurting out my location anytime soon, but he knew that my situation was delicate at this moment.

The comments I get on my videos were startling, violent to say none the less. It was like looking through a hate form just for me. These were my own fans, and they were turning negative so fast. What was I supposed to do?

"Maybe you shouldn't look at-"

I looked at Kevin slowly, with the settled turn it made him shut up instantly. It was just making me feel so hollow the person that I couldn't even do anything. Kevin frowned, upon seeing my face.

He leaned forward, setting his elbows on his knees and leaning towards me. This didn't startle me or make me jump, which was a nice feeling to let him be so close to me. "Do you wanna make some fun food?" Kevin tried to lighten me up. "Like, pancakes?"

My eyes scanned my phone, looking through the comments one last time and then finally looking up to Kevin. He turned concerned, and I felt something rolled down my cheek. Instantly knowing the feeling from all my crying.

Kevin reached to my face, wiping a tear and my head yearning for his touch. He held still for me and I turned off my phone. My head was clear but just upset, and the urge of physical contact with him turned to a need.

All of the recent physical exchanges started making me feel like I needed it. I was starving for a sensation of another person, not unwanted types; and especially just him and only his. My body came closer to his, as I started to hug him tightly in the most uncomfortable position possible.

Kevin's reaction was to wrap his arms around me and slowly rub his hands on my back.

"Let's make some pancakes..." I mumble, since I just wanted to be away from my phone at the moment. I'll figure it out a situation later, but right now I need to calm down and think about it and Kevin's perfect for me right now.

Yes, feelings aside, he was a good friend. Somehow I want to share my feelings too...