Sympathy but it's from CallMeKevin

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I love Kevin.

I loved him, why did I love him?

What was wrong with me???

Even laying down and thinking about it for so long being me feel super insane, I had no idea how to deal with it was just like the feelings bubbled up inside of me in really wanted to express themselves but knowing that everything that I put him through it... I... can't force him to put up with me like this, even if it's how I feel.

Kevin sat down at his kitchen table as I was farther away and sitting on the stairway outside. I needed to be away, opening up my eyes to this situation just made me think of all the ways this could end horribly wrong as well. I leaned on my knees as I hunched over and just looked at the ground since I can even look up at anybody.

Kevin was happy I was outside, but he also had the feeling that I wanted to be alone right now. I did... but he was overcoming that feeling just to have his arms around me right now.

My eyes burned, and my heart sunken with it. I started rubbing at my eyes with my wrist... maybe I should start heading back inside. If I start crying out here, it'll be sure to draw some attention.

The bedroom sounded nice.

I stood up, and turned around to open the door to only see Kevin holding two mugs in his hand. He looked confused.

"I uh... made hot chocolate for you..." Kevin handed me the mug and slowly and let me hold it in front of my chest. His hand placed it on the side of my face, gently rubbing his thumb on my cheek and across my eye as I grabbed his forearm and held his arm still and leaned into it. "Your eyes are red, are you okay...?" Kevin hunched over to match my height more.

Pinching my eyes, I refused to answer anyways and I just wanted to hold him. My body urged in closer and I felt my chest against his. Kevin put his hands on my waist slowly but in a friendly way. Reguardless it my body tensed and I leaned in anyways. He pulled me in and closed the door behind us.

He pulled his head away and looked at me as I glanced up to finally open my eyes and feel tears already coming out of my eyes. Kevin got nervous, and I didn't even make a sniffle, just slowly put my head back in his chest.

"I'm here... I'm here for you." Kevin hushly whispered into my ear as I felt my heart spiked in...

I don't know...