Overcome

Chapter Ten

"Common Gina, it's been over two weeks! Aren't you nocturnal yet?" just tries to wake me up for the 3rd time.

I groan and roll over. Justin whips the blankets of the bed.

"Let's go!"

I get up a little more awake from the cold air hitting me. "Just because you, for some reason don't sleep! doesn't mean I can't!" I say sharply.

Justin laughs knowing that I haven't been a happy camper with my lack of sleep.

He walks out of my room so that I can change. For the first time in a long time, I put on my black ariat paddock boots. Forgot how comfy they were. I used to just wear my Sperries everywhere I went for the past 5 months.

As I slipped the halter over Harry's head, I heard Justin open the gate to get in the indoor arena.

I walked Harry into the indoor and got really nerves. But why? I was just hand walking Harry around the ring, not a big deal. But it felt like one.

"Go ahead, you got this" Justin encouraged.

I started walking the perimeter of the ring. About halfway around I loosen my grip on the lead rope and realize that I was perfectly fine.

"Good boy" I said to Harry. "I know, I'm being stupid bud."

I continue walking and talking to Harry, I look up from the ground and get punched in the stomach.

I can't stop the flashbacks coming into my mind. I can't even see where I really am, all I see is me pushing Harry forward towards the vertical. Him hitting and summersaulting. Pain going through me body like it's actually happening right this second. Then blackness.

"Gina! Gina! look at me!" Justin yells.

I started to come back to reality and realized that I was on my knees. I was breathing hard and shaking a bit. I was totally putting all my weight onto Justin as for he probably stopped me from falling flat on my face.

"Calm down" he says to me more calm now that he sees that I'm responsive.

"Calm down, you're going to be okay."

My horse is loose but still standing right me my side.

Justin sees me looking at Harry." that's one good horse, won't ever leave your side ever again."

"Justin?" I say shakily still catching my breath. "Justin, did I go unconscious?" my breathing better.

He thinks for a second. "At first I thought you did. You staggered back like something hit you, the started to just fall. "

Since my breathings right I pull away from him.

"Then what happened?" I ask curious because I had no idea I even fell.

"Then I got to you right as you were about to hit the ground. But then you started breathing heavy and shaking. Not like having a seizer, like scared shaking."

I look up and realize why, I'm kneeling in the exact spot that me and Harry crashed.

"Wierd" me and Justin say at the same time.

"What happened?" he asked.

"Well I felt like I got punched then flashbacks of that crash started to play in my head. But I couldn't see or feel anything other than the pain I had that day. The worst pain I've ever felt and I didn't really need to feel that again" I look at Justin. "I didn't scream?"

"No, you didn't speak at all.....Gina, are you okay?"

"I feel fine now" I lied, I was still a little shaky. "fine actually" I get up and walk Harry to the excit.

"What are you doing?" Justin asks.

" Putting Harry away, I need a break."

I thought that Justin would understand but instead he says "um, shouldn't you be waking around the ring?"

"Did you not just see what happened in there?" I say annoyed.

"Yeah, I did actually, you have to fix that now."

I spit out a laugh "since when are you a trainer?" I venomously say.

"You'd rather wast your time fighting me then fixing a big problem that your not going to be able to go around in the future?"

"Maybe I don't want to do it in the future!"

"This isn't you! You would go walk around that arena 20 times until you got over whatever that was that just happened!

I stopped walking, he was totally right. I turn around to face him. His eyebrow shoots up.

"What?" he asks.

"Sorry, I'm being a bitch, I shouldn't take it out on you."

"Apology accepted, and take out what?"

I don't answer.

"Common , say it. I know you want to." he said in a voice that you would encourage your dog with.

"I'm embarrasses that I still have all these problems with that stupid crash! I wish it never happend! I would be in Wellington right now! " the fact that I even remembered that the Winter Equestrian Festival was going on right now, shocked me.

"Do you want to go to Wellington?"

"No, I'm too scared to do it now."

"Just remember what your mom said, time heals everything."

"It's been almost 6 months." I say not flattered.

"You just have to wait your time, or fight it and overcome it."

That made me want to walk right back in that arena. But I was tired and it was time to go. Maybe some sleep would help with the fact that I'm still shaking a little.