in violent frustration | gerbert

Chapter Eleven

Bert finishes up his second song at his gig, enjoying himself. He loves performing for people, watching their smiles, watching them cheer.

It's a small gig in a bar on the other side of town tonight, he was really hoping Gerard could come, but he had to leave to who knows where.

Bert chuckles as he catches his breath, turning to Quinn who has the guitar in his hand to tell him somthing.

Until in the corner of his eye, he sees familiar red hair at the window, making him quickly look over.

He sees Gerard outside with a man twice the size as him, nodding and leading Gerard away.

"Hold on" Bert says, struggling to get over the cords in the hurry he's in, finally making his way through, and out of the bar into the cold.

Going the direction they went, he doesn't see them down the street, so turns into the ally.

Where he sees Gerard's small frame held against the man, Bert standing there as he watches Gerard kiss down his jaw.

The mans hands grip Gerard's hips, running around his back and gripping his ass.

"What the hell!" Bert yells pulling Gerard away, shoving the man away from him.

"What the fuck Gerard, did you call someone on us? Fuck you" The man scoffs walking out of the dark alleyway, leaving the two teens.

"Gerard what the hell! You're out here sleeping with men? That's what you do out here!?" Bert yells.

Gerard just puts his hand over his mouth, trying to process the fact that Bert now knows.

"It's not what you think Bert, I don't sleep with them-" Gerard cuts himself out, beginning to hyperventilate.

"Come on, you're going home with me and you're going to fucking explain this to me" Bert says leading him to the car.

Getting in, Gerard just wraps his arms around himself, feeling cold, disgusted, and most of all, ashamed.

Bert sighs softly when he glances over and at a red-light, slides off his jacket giving it to him as Gerard doesn't have his usal sweater on.

Gerard slides it on, warming up and stares at his lap in shame as Bert drives.

They stay quiet the whole ride, Gerard just trying to figure out how to explain this to Bert without coming off as a whore.

Arriving home, Bert leads Gerard in and leading her upstairs to his room, closing his door.

"I don't sleep with them, I just- touch them and stuff" Gerard says, knowing Bert's about to bombard him with questions.

"Why Gerard? For money? Why would you do this?" Bert asks, a bit more calmed due to the cooling off period of the car ride.

"It's for my brother Bert, you act like I choose to do this. I don't have a choice, my brother needs to stay in the medical facility, and it's not cheap" Gerard says.

Bert pauses, feeling guilty. He's only going this for his family, he shouldn't have gone off like that.

Bert sits next to Gerard, "Gee, there are other ways. You don't have to blow them"

"You don't understand, I made a deal. I drop what I'm doing and go to them when they call, and they pay good, really good" Gerard says.

"But fuck- I hate it so much Bert. I'm just as disgusted with myself as you are right now" Gerard sniffles.

Bert wraps his arm around him, "I'm not disgusted with you, not at all"

"Y-You're not?" Gerard's shakey voice asks, as if he was expecting Bert to completely disown him.

"I know you're doing this for your brother, even dolls struggle" Bert says, making Gerard softly laugh at his charm in this situation.

His arm still wrapped around Gerard, he rubs his arm and Gerard leans intk his side, "But I don't want you doing it anymore"

"I have too Bert, my brother needs to stay there. I do what I have to do to take care of him, even if I hate it" Gerard says.

"I'm so close to paying it off, then I can stop, I'll never have to deal with them again" Gerard sniffles.

"How much more do you have to pay off?" Bert asks, hating to hear Gerard having to sacrifice so much for his brother.

"Roughly 1,200" Gerard says, feeling so ashamed, especially now that Bert knows about this.

"Let me help Gerard, let me pay it" Bert says, only making Gerard chuckles shaking his head at him.

"I'm close to having it finished, I only have about 3 more times of, you know, and I'll be done" Gerard says.

"I don't want those men near you again, I don't even want you to go back to that part of town, I can pay the rest off" Bert says.

Gerard chuckles sadly, "I don't want too either, but I'm not letting you pay for it, I can take care of Mikey myself"

"Doll, it's not a matter of taking care of him yourself, let someone else help you guys, you've obviously been on your own for a while" Bert says.

Bert moves, standing, "Do you want to stay here tonight, or go home?"

"Go home, I want to shower and go to sleep" Gerard says standing and Bert walks with Gerard.

Bert walks Gerard home, telling him goodnight before Bert goes home, getting ready for bed.

Bert hates that Gerard has to do vile things to men for money to help his brother.

But it's okay, he's going to make sure Gerard never has to even be in 20 feet of them again.