in violent frustration | gerbert

Chapter Nineteen

Gerard wakes hearing his alarm go off, sitting up sighing softly remembering what happened last night.

Gerard goes to the bathroom, washing off the dried tears from last night. What can he say? He's sensitive.

He's worn out from being out all night but still has to go to school so his parents don't get suspicious, knowing they will.

Spitting out the toothpaste, he brushes his hair, dressing, applying makeup and grabs his bag walking downstairs but pauses when he gets to the end of the stairs, seeing Bert and Linda?

"Um, what's going on?" Gerard asks confused seeing they're here and talking with Donna and Bryan, seeing packed bags.

"We're going out of town to help your grandparents but you have school. So you're going to stay here, Jenna will be coming by and checking on you" Bryan says.

"What? How long are you going to be gone?" Gerard asks, not really wanting to be alone right now.

"About a week, you are not to go anywhere but school, understand Gerard?" Bryan says, giving Gerard a warning look.

"Yes sir" Gerard sighs and his parents load up their things in the car and leave, leaving Gerard alone.

Gerard looks at Bert before sighing, walking to the kitchen and talking his medicine.

"Is it something I said?" Bert asks following him into the kitchen, oblivious to what part of last night upset Gerard.

"Just leave me alone right now" Gerard sighs, finishing his medication and leaving, walking to school.

He's not mad at Bert, his feeling's are just hurt. He was so happy when he kissed him, but then said it was just to get the guy away?

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Bert sighs watching Gerard throughout the day, staying quiet. He hasn't seen his usual smile all day, hasn't barely talked to even the guys.

He kissed Gerard to see his reaction, seen Gerard was a little stunned and used the excuse it was to get the boy away.

"I'll see you guys later" Gerard says, end of the day, walking down the street back towards home.

"I don't know what the fuck you did to him last night, but fix it" Jeph says, unhappy with Bert as he obviously hurt him in some way.

Bert follows a distance behind Gerard, to Gerard's place and following him upstairs.

"Doll, please tell me what happened. I hate seeing you upset, especially if it's because of me" Bert says.

Gerard sits on the bed, "Do you not like me? Is that it?"

Bert's heart breaks hearing him say that, walking and sitting on the bed next to Gerard, "What? Gerard no"

"You flirt and lead me on- then you fucked another guy. You flirt even more, then you kiss me and tell me it was nothing!" Gerard says.

"And I mean- I get if you don't like me like that and leading people on is some mean kink- and I get I may be reading too into it"

Bert chuckles, watching Gerard continue to rant on, finding it the cutest thing, just listening to this nonesense.

"You done?" Bert says watching him as he rant comes to an end, waiting to see if he needs to say anything else.

"..yeah" Gerard says, done and feels Bert's soft lips press against his, hands cupping his jaw.

Gerard smiles against his lips, laying back as they continue, Bert's veiny, tattooed hand holding his jaw.

"I didn't mean to upset you baby, I was just nervous you didn't like me. I've wanted you since the moment we met" Bert mumbles, pulling away.

"I really want to be with you, but I don't know if we can.." Gerard says sadly, making Bert get off, looking at him in confusion.

"What? Why?" Bert asks, confused on why they can't be together, wanting nothing but Gerard.

"B-Bryan- I can't come out. I-I don't want to hide it and make you feel like you're back in the closet" Gerard says sadly.

"Gerard, I don't care what I have to do. If you're not ready to come out, then I'm willing to keep it hidden, I just want to be with you" Bert says.

Gerard smirks, placing one last kiss on Bert's lips, biting his lip, so happy he can finally be with Bert.

"You know this means you can't hook up with random guys anymore" Gerard smirks, teasing him.

Bert laughs, "Fuck you, I was drunk and horny. And anyway, I'd much rather hook up with you"

They just got together, and Bryan and Donna will be gone for days, what a better timing?