in violent frustration | gerbert

Chapter Twenty Four

Gerard smiles as he sits at lunch with the guys, talking and eating, enjoying themselves, Gerard not feeling too well right now, but pushing past it, wanting to enjoy his day like everyone else.

"So want to come hang out with us after school?" Jeph asks nudging Gerard's arm softly with his elbow, hoping he'll be able too as uaually he has to decline.

"I can't, I've got things to do" Gerard says, wishing he could. Everyone continues to talk, Gerard remaining quiet as he tries to calm himself from the symptoms as they grow more intense as time passes.

Bert watches as Gerard's beautiful hazel eyes are closed, his finger tapping the lunch table. Bert takes and hold the hand that's been continuously tapping, wanting to help calm him.

"Baby, let me take you home, you're obviously feeling one coming on" Bert whispers, holding his hand as Gerard eyes squeeze obviously in pain but trying to fight it off himself.

"No, no I'm fine. Just a little light headed" Gerard softly smiles, attempting to gather himself and lays his head on Bert's arm, resting and calming, catching his breath.

Their intertwined hands laid on Gerard's thigh under the table since they can't be seen, but desperate wanting to love on each other, Bert keeping an eye on Gerard through lunch, concerned for him.

Throughout the rest of the day, Bert worries at how out of it Gerard seems, distant, wobbly when he walks, seeming extremely disorianted.

Bert wishes they could be seen together, so he can take care of Gerard when he's like this, when his Epilepsy acts up, especially in public. Help him walk, keep to Gerard's side in case he trips or needs assistance.

But Gerard isn't ready to come out yet, which Bert respects. So for now, they'll just have to sneak around and he'll have to help Gerard the best he can.

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Bert walks with his arm around his mother as they walk over to Gerard's home for dinner again, excited to see Gerard, always wanting to be with him, especially knowing Gerard's not had a good day at school today.

"Hey guys! Come in" Donna smiles opening the door, letting them in out of the cold, Bert helping Jenna slide her coat off, holding it for her so she doesn't have to worry about keeping up with it.

Sitting, Jenna and Donna talk, Bert waiting for Gerard to come downstairs, wanting to see the beautiful boy he's lucky enough to call his own.

But he doesn't come down. He must not know they're here yet, he should be down soon then, right? Maybe he's getting ready, it takes Gerard so long to fix his makeup.

"Sweetheart, is Gerard down here? I thought he was in his room getting ready but I can't don't see him" Bryan asks walking downstairs, looking around for him.

"No, I thought he was upstairs getting ready, is he not back from the cemetery yet?" Donna asks stopping what she's doing, looking worried.

"No, he knows he should be back, he's not answering his phone- dammit, I've got to go help Joe really quick, can you go check on him?" Bryan asks, extremely worried.

"I can't, dinner's on the stove- Bert, would you be a dear and check on Gerard? He's at the cemetery down the street" Donna asks.