Feel (Kellic)

Chapter 2

Chapter 2

Class is so boring. I have no interest in anything here, and the drone of Mr. Merrick's voice always puts me to sleep. Don't get me wrong, Merrick is a nice guy. But he's a terrible teacher and I have no idea why they hired him.

The two kids across from me are giggling and whispering about something. They're composing random little notes and passing them around to their other friends. Social interaction like this is ridiculous. It's absolutely immature. I know this class is boring, but can't you wait until the end of class to talk to your friends?

Mr. Merrick seems to notice these little happenings and he sighs. "Pass the notes up front." He orders the two girls and they giggle even more. The girls always gawk at Merrick when he has his back turned or when he's not teaching. They all find him handsome, so being caught passing notes by him must be an accomplishment. I will never understand this logic.

I glance out the window which is smeared with grime. I know they try to make this hell look as pleasing as possible, but it's hard to wipe everything away when it's been here for so long. My mind begins to wander as I stare out that dirty window.

I can't stop thinking about the boy at the graveyard, the one with the flowers. I looked around for him, but it was like he just vanished into thin air. Maybe I was seeing things, I was in a cemetery. But he seemed so real with those big brown eyes and his kind voice. I told myself over and over again not to think about him, but I keep catching myself wondering about this mysterious boy. Frankly, it was a little odd how openly he talked to me. Nobody ever just approaches me like that.

Godammit, Kellin, stop thinking about him. I don't even know his name and I've only seen him once. But there was something so off about the situation that left me wondering.

I need to figure out who he is. It's now my mission. I know I'll probably never see him again, but I have this odd feeling that I will. And before that happens, I need to know. But where do I start if I have nothing to go off of? 

I have to start somewhere, wherever this somewhere is.

***

The dining hall is packed. Well, if you can even call it being "packed". There isn't many kids who go to this school, because the whole nation doesn't know about it's existence. And if people do know about Pine Hills, none of them want to go here. I was forced to come here, and the majority of the kids here were too. We all have problems and we're all a little crazy here. I know the world is full of crazy people, but this is the only part of the world where I really have thought about my own sanity. Because the things I see in my dreams always leave me shuddering and that night when Hayley fell... Sometimes I don't know which version is real. 

To say the least, Pine Hills is a weird place to be. Honestly, some of the staff are nice. Some are assholes and some you don't even see. Take Principal Kowalewicz as an example. We barely ever see him and some of us doubt his existence. If he ever does come out of wherever he's hiding, it's to escape to somewhere else. No one knows anything about him.

And then you have Vice Principal Sheeran. He's a really chill guy and enjoys talking to the students. A lot of us believe that he disapproves of how this place is run, though he's never said that himself. I wonder why he even dared to step foot on the grounds, let alone be the fucking VP. He just doesn't seem like the type of guy to be here. 

I sigh to myself. I know I always say I hate it here, but to speak the truth, I have to be here and I wouldn't survive a day anywhere else. I don't have many friends, but most of the kids here tend to keep to themselves. There aren't many of us, so in the end, we all just sort of talk to everyone.