Don't You Hear My Call?

Giant Poodle Man

Rogers POV
All my life I thought I had know what I wanted. At first, to meet a nice woman and start a family. Then it changed to focus on my music. After the band took off it was to a have as much fun a time as possible. Now I sit here wondering if I haven't got life figured out after all as I watch the most beautiful man alive talk about Astrophysics.

My life changed drastically when I first met Brian in Uni. I had been drumming for a while, but when Smile starting doing well and I hung out with him more I started to become more empathetic and forgiving. He changed me for the better but I had begun to suppress my feelings for him. I thought it was just a phase. Thought.

Now here I am, 1974 and those feeling have only grown. He's a giant, adorable poodle-man that won't leave my mind. And it's both lovely and terrible to think about him because I know he doesn't feel the same. To the world, and the rest of the guys, I'm a ladies man who could have anyone. But no body knows that I use those ladies as distractions from Brian. I feel awful being with them and imagining Brian under me instead, but I can't help it. He's got a hold on me.

"Rog, are you even listening?!"
His voice woke me up from the trance of beauty I was in. That sweet, sweet voice. "Yeah, I just got a little distracted. That's all" I said, a bit embarrassed that was staring at his lips whilst replying. "Well as I was saying, I need you to help me out with a new song I'm working on. Could you listen to this lick and tell me what you think?" I nodded as he went to get his guitar from the recording space. I stayed in my spot on the couch just behind the glass wall.

He returned with his guitar in hand and sat down across from me. He started to play but I spaced out again looking at those long fingers work their way up the neck of the instrument and puck the strings. I wondered what else those fingers could do...

He stopped playing and I snapped out of my daydream. "That was brilliant, Bri! Do you have any lyrics?" I asked so I could watch him talk again, or more to stare at his lips moving. "Yeah, but I'm not sure if they're any good. And besides, I don't know if Fred would like it." It was early in the day and we had gotten to the studio early so neither of the other boys were here yet.

"I'm sure he'll love it. All of your songs are great." I replied. Truthfully, I thought he was the best song writer of the group. A small blush crept up on his cheeks and I couldn't help but debate weather it was due to my compliment or he was just a bit warm in his jumper. I hoped to God it was the first.

"Thanks, Roggie. You always know the right thing to say." He said. 'He is being awfully nice today isn't he' I thought. Just then we were interrupted by Freddie entering the Studio quite loudly. "I'm here my darlings!" He shouted. John stepped in behind him and gave a small smile to both of us as he set down his bass.

"Brian wrote a little something and it sounds quite good" I started off "I think it would be good to build off of it today." Brian blushed again and I loved the sight of it. Fred and John agreed to listen and soon a song was beginning to form.

"This sounds lovely, Brian" Freddie stated "Has it got any words?" Brian got up from his stool and grabbed a sheet of paper from his coat pocket. "Here they are. I'm not sure if it's any good though, it's about a journey through space so it might be a little odd to sing about." He said whilst looking down at his feet. "Bri, this is great, I think it's would be better if you sang. You've got a great voice and I think it would compliment the lyrics very well." Freddie said as we looked over the paper with a gleam in his eyes. "You really think so?" Brian asked in disbelief. "Of course Bri, you're a great singer. One of the best if I do say so" I spoke as he walked over to Freddie to get the paper back so he could read it again.

Brian blushed again at my compliment. "Seems like someone has a crush" Freddie whispered to John. I was close to Deaks so I could hear but I'm not sure if Bri did. John chuckled and raised his eyebrows at Freddie and looked over at Brian's red face, unaware that I had just heard Fred's little comment.

Freddie walked away from John and back to his original spot. "Bri, how about you go into the box and start recording the vocals." Freddie said as we walked out the door and behind the glass wall. John followed and I walked behind him. As I made my way to the door frame Freddie's hand stopped me. "How about you stay out there with him. Y'know, for good luck" Freddie winked and I felt my face start to warm up as he closed the door, leaving me with no option but to stay.

Did he know how I felt about Brian? Was that comment earlier meant to be heard by me? Did he think Brian felt the same way? Endless questions surrounded my head but I managed to keep cool and find my self a seat.

I moved over to a chair next to the piano and watched Brian sing. He glanced over at me a few times and each with a small smile at the corner of his mouth. His voice as angelic and I wondered just how I could make his voice sound...

Soon it was late and we all had to go. I was putting on my coat as Brian walked up to me, looking a bit flustered."You were great today. Maybe tomorrow you could play one of your songs for me" He said. Tomorrow wasn't a studio day. I almost squealed at the thought of being alone with him. "I'd love to" I replied. "Great! Come by my flat around 6 tomorrow?" He asked. "I'll be there" I said and walked with him to the car park. I got into my car and the whole ride home I could only think one thing.

Was this going to be a date?

Hey I'm writing this while I'm on chapter 36 so I know this writing kinda sucks right now but it gets wayyyyyy better soon and the chapters get much longer and put together so please keep reading !!!

Hey guys I hope you like this first chapter! It's my first time writing and I know this is short but I'm open to all help and feedback!! Tell me what you want next and I'll gladly listen. I'm excited to write and hope I can write a lot because I'm getting a lot of free time soon! Anyway please feel free to comment and correct me! Have a great day!!💓