Don't You Hear My Call?

Kiss Of Fire

Freddie's POV
After last night, I couldn't sleep. When John passed out again, I put him to bed rather than wait for him to get up so I could question him. I didn't sleep in our bed though, I was too worried that what Brian had said was right and if it was, I didn't want to be in the same bed as him.

I slept on the couch and tossed and turned. Eventually, I gave up and awoke early. I made breakfast for myself. I knew John wouldn't be up for hours, but when he was, I seriously needed to talk to him.

Brian was on the brink of tears when he showed up at my flat. They was he spoke to John seemed so real, it couldn't possibly be fake. Or, at least not totally. Well, I'm not going to let myself believe that John had sex with my best friend before he even had sex with me. Not until he told me the full story.

I paced back and forth between the kitchen and the living room. It was almost 8:30 so I decided if he wasn't up by 9:00 I'd wake him up myself. I didn't want to impose on his too soon though, I want to make sure he's alright and then we'll talk about it. I don't know what to make of the situation at the moment.

Roger's POV
Brian didn't come home last night. He stayed out and didn't call. He might be at John or Freddie's, but I don't know for sure. I'll check with them later. Right now I'm just trying not to freak out.

I waited around all morning, but there was still no sight of him. I couldn't eat or go back to sleep, not that I wanted to eat anyway. Eating brought back too many bad memories. I just sat in silence. That was, until I heard the door open.

I got up from my seat and turned around to see who it was. Brian walked in and closed the door behind him. He just walked to the bedroom. "Brian, I'm so sorry if I hurt you. I didn't mean to s-" I started but was soon cut off. "Save it" he interrupted and went into the bedroom.

I followed him in. It broke my heart to see the duffel bag laying on the bed. He was at the dresser, pulling clothes out and take his toiletry bag off the top. "Brian, what are you doing?" I whispered. He shoved everything into the duffle and turned to face me for the first time today.

"I can't stay here" his eyes were stone cold. Full of hurt and anger. "Brian it meant nothing I don't even know why I said it" I pleaded. He just shook his head and continued packing. "Why won't you forgive me" I cried. Tears were pricking at my eyes. Brian looked up as if the answer were clear.

"Maybe because you'll spread your legs for everyone but me. I love you Roger, but you don't love me and you go off and have sex with one of my best friends!"

"I'm a virgin, Brian. I haven't been with anyone" I said. He rolled his eyes. "How can I believe that?" He asked.

"Why would I have sex with anyone else? In case you forgot, I can get pregnant and I don't want to have anyone else's baby but yours. That's why I waited so long, because I wanted you to be able to give that to me. Not John. John and I did nothing!" The tears were falling fast from my eyes.

Brian stepped closer to me. "If you and John did nothing, then why did you say his name?!" his hands were curling into fists as he shouted.

"John and I had spent a lot of time together while you were sick. I'd been talking to him a lot. But I didn't mean to say his name. I only want you" I hoped he would stop asking questions. Every negative word cut like a knife.

"I want to know that you only want me" He said, "what you did hurt me." There were tears filling in his eyes. "Brian, I'm ready to give myself to you. I want to. I-I want to have your kids and doing this act will bring us together and I trust you to do this with me" I grabbed his hands.

Brian sighed and wiped his eyes. He squeezed my hands tight and drew a breath. "Roger, I love you, but I'm scared. I'm scared that you'll just leave me after we have sex. That you'll find someone new" he said. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Brian knew that he was the only one for me. It didn't matter if fucking James Dean threw himself at me, I would only sleep with Brian.