Don't You Hear My Call?

All Day Long

Freddie's POV
The boys didn't know how I really felt. Yes they were the only ones who knew I was gay. Yes they knew I was tricky and likes to tease. But they didn't know why I did that stuff.

I have feelings for John that I'd never thought I'd have for anyone. The moment I met him I feel hard for his delicate smile and wholehearted laugh. The gap between his two front teeth made me melt and his little faces always brightened my day. I never acknowledged my homosexual feelings fully until I met John.

I knew he was bi, but I still doubted any connection that was more than friendship. We shared secrets and slept at each others houses, sometimes even sharing his bed. We made inside jokes and shared clothing. I'd even kiss his cheek as a joke we made up. We'd pretend we were and old married couple sometimes. Still, I wanted more.

The reason I made fun of Brian and Roger was because I was jealous. It took me a while to admit to it. And I give Roger a hard time when I'm secretly angry with John, mostly for sleeping with woman. But that wasn't his fault and I have no right to get mad at him for it! So I take it out on Roger, but he doesn't deserve it either.

I was open about my sexual life for many reasons. One being, I like to be an open book as a way to get closer to people. Another being that Deacy will hear about my antics and want to participate in some of them...

Maybe one day I'll confess to him about my feelings, but for now I'll have to stick with jerking off in the bathroom during rehearsals whilst thinking about him. How I wished the hand around my cock was John's and not my own. How I wished that we could be the ones in the supply closet hooking up whilst the other two waited in the recording studio. But even if we were together, we'd have to keep it a secret. If the press found out ANY of us were gay, our lives would be ruined.

John was so perfect. His beautiful face that lights up the room. His quite demeanor and little naughty jokes that catch you by surprise, for you'd never think a innocent man like that could say such dirty things. His body. Slim yet muscular and taller than I. That was a bit of a turn on for me. Even his bum was perfectly round and perky, it takes all my strength not to pinch his ass every time I see him. (See pic above) I ached to know what lies beneath those tight trousers of his.

I wished he felt the same way I did

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Johns POV
Coming out as bisexual was a mental and physical challenge. Not only did I feel hatred for myself when I got a bit hot and flustered staring at men, but I also felt like I was disappointing my catholic parents. I would wake up feeling ill every time I thought about telling someone about my sexuality. Thank God for Freddie though. When he came out to us, it gave me the courage to come out myself. First to him, of course, since I trusted him the most and I knew he would understand. Then to Roger and Bri. I knew they'd be supportive but I wanted Freddie by my side just in case. I always felt safe when I was with him

I've yet to come out to my parents though. I didn't want them to worry about me or disown me, so I never really told them. But whenever someone on tour or in a bar asked, I always gave a little nod.

Freddie was the most supportive though. He was there for me the entire time I was debating telling anyone. I instantly felt closer to him, even though he was already my closest friend.

It felt weird saying Freddie was my friend. He was more like my... boyfriend. I even wrote a song for him on our new album called, "You're My Best Friend", but I did say I loved him in it so everything was all over the place. I mean we are together all the time and I'd be lying if I said I didn't find him attractive. I mean who am I kidding, he's the hottest man alive and I would sleep with him in a heartbeat.

Woah. I've never thought about I like that before. But that's also a bit of a lie because Freddie was one of the first men I've actually found sexually attractive.

My feelings about him were mixed, but I still blushed when he was near me. Maybe a subconsciously liked him. Maybe I was suppressing my feelings again. To be honest, and this is a bit embarrassing but, every time we sing "Liar" together and I'm up against him in front of a crowd, I get a little aroused. Sometimes too aroused.

But all aside, I didn't know where Freddie and I stood. I think I need a sign to tell me how I feel, because my mind is like a battlefield. Fighting for both teams and not really getting a straight answer. Then again I'm not straight so...

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Authors POV
Johns sign would come sooner than he thought. As he was sitting down at home eating supper, there was a knock on the door. John got up from his meal to see who it was. As he swung open the door he saw a pile of mail on the ground. He picked it up and took it to the dining room.

There was a package amongst the bills and news letters. It was small and square. John opened it up carefully, in case it was breakable. There was a note on top of the item inside.

Dear John,

Happy early Christmas! I hope you like this gift. I couldn't help but give it to you early. I found it when I was cleaning out my closet and thought I would be cool to give to you. It's from when we first started hanging out together. Sorry I couldn't give it to you in person, but I'm always forgetting stuff at home and I know that if I didn't send it through the post, you wouldn't have got it till March! Hope you like it, dear!

Love, Freddie x

Under the note was a picture of John and Freddie, encased in a golden frame. It was perfect and John almost cried looking at it. To his surprise, a tear fell from his cheek. He finally knew how he felt about Freddie

(Also, John gets the package the night after recording where Freddie finds out about Bri and Rog!)

Hope you liked this change of POV. I've decided to make this both a Maylor and Deacury book so I get a lot of new ideas!! Sorry if the time line isn't right, I'm just trying to have a bit of fun with it! Anyways I'll try to stay on top of everything! If you have any questions I'll be sure to answer them as quickly as possible!! - Deacury💓