Blossoms on fire

Chapter 3

EDITED

I wake up. it was nice to sleep in some bed. I enjoy it so much.

The birds outside are singing and I like it very much. But before they end their arie someone knocks on the door.

'Can I come in, miss?' she asks.

'Yes.' I reply.

The doors are opened by some girl in my age. She has long brown curly hair and smile on her face.

'Good morning, miss.' she greets.

'Good morning.' I reply back.

'How did you sleep, miss?' she asks.

'Good. Thank you for asking.' I say.

'That's good, miss.' she says.

'Please, call me Lea.' I say.

'I cannot. I am sorry. His Highness demanded me to call you Miss, Princess or Leonora. I am sorry, miss.' she says.

'And you are?' I ask.

'Ave.' she replies.

'I did not hear it before.' I say.

'It means bird. I do not exactly know why my parents chose this name for me.' she replies.

'Why did you come here anyway?' I ask.

'To dress you up and make your hair, miss. May I?' she asks.

I nod.

She goes to one of the wardrobes. She opens it and I see so many dresses there.

'Can I have something less noble?' I ask.

'No, Miss. King demand.' she answers.

I nod.

Then she shows me every dress in that wardrobe. There was a dress I liked the most. It was not so elegant. It was quite simple.

'Can I have the rose ones?' I ask.

'Yes, miss.' she answers.

She gets the rose dress from the wardrobe and comes to me. She helps me dress into that and then she slips on my feets slippers with little heels. Then she makes me sit in front of the table with a mirror on the seat and she makes my hair. She made me  a very difficult braid.

'Thank you, Ave.' I say.

'I am glad that I can help. You are kind, miss.' she says.

'It is just one' s point of view. And kindness does not matter in this cruel world.' I say.

'Everyone just wants the power to obtain. Even when they are going to marry, they looked at the power behind the person, not at heart, kindness or other things.' I say.

'That is true. But still, they are people who search for kindness.' she says.

'I wish to be someone else.' I suddenly say.

'Why, miss?' she asks.

'From my childhood, I wanted to live in a town or village. Not to be a princess. Princess should be beautiful so she can marry someone powerful. But why did fate choose me to be born into the royal family?  I mean nothing.' I say.

'Miss...' she starts.

'Fate surely know why it chose you.' she says.

'Why did you think that?' I ask.

'Because you are going to marry into Rouka' s royal family. And believe every citizen from Rouka is happy about it. With your marriage, it will come back our lost pride. And you are beautiful, miss. I am saying this as other maids, king or princes. How did you say, miss, it is just one's point of you.' she says.

'But still...' I say.

'I know that there are things you did not know about this case but do not worry you will know when the time comes. The most important now is to make a good choice. The princes will be fighting with each other and after a month you will decide who of them go through the battles of strength. You can choose two or three.' she says.

'But how will they going to fight in the first round?' I ask.

'They will be spending time with you. They will choose activities and they will be doing them with you. ' she replies.

Each prince wants me but I am not sure that I want even one. 

Mum. What should I do? Why are you so far away from me? I need you in my life. I NEED YOU NOW.

'Are you okay, miss?' she asks.

'I am okay. Can you please tell princes that I want to be until noon alone?' I ask.

'I will tell but I cannot promise they will accept it.' she says.

'That is enough. Thank you, Ave.' I say.

She nods. And then she leaves.

I start to write in my mind:

Be born in a world you think that you are not part of it. Because you cannot keep up with others. Because you cannot understand their priorities.

In the hard times, when you feel like a volcano to erupt soon, you can just by few words kick out all of the feelings you were feeling. And at that time you do not think about it.

'TAKE WHATEVER YOU WANT AND GET OUT.'

'I DO NOT HAVE EVERYTHING I WANT.'

'WHAT?'

'YOU.'

And then you are in trouble. Because someone can play with your words and make out of it another meaning.

And because of this silly thing of mine, I am going to marry maybe after month.

But still, why did they want me?

Why did they kill my family?

Why did they did not choose my sister?

I do not believe them with the answers that they did not know that I lost my family. 

I DON'T BELIEVE THEM AT ALL!

For that question is just one answer: 

I surely know that they did it. They killed them so they could take over Micao.

Why another one would do it? Rouka and Micao were in the war. So it is very simple.

Yes, I do not know anything about our history, politics or other things but this is simple even for me, for someone ignorant as me.

Mum, please tell me. Do you think the same? Do you know who killed them?

Until yesterday everything was the truth. But yesterday I heard my first lie.

This world is so weird.

To live without lies is impossible for me. 

I live in dreams with pink glasses on or  I am forever lost in my mind, I do not know what is the truth or what is a simple lie.

WHO AM I?

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Who am I?

End of Chapter 3