Blossoms on fire

Chapter 5

EDITED

After Noor's leaving everything around me was so quiet. It fell into the time of the silence. It was so awkward. 

Noor seems not so interested in winning me. He keeps acting opposite to his brothers. It is weird too. Everyone keeps saying that by marrying me they are going to earn pride. But he is acting like he did not want any.

I am still sitting in the dining room not knowing what to do. I am sailing inside of my mind on each thought. 

I spent my time just with one of them. Ben. And I do not like it at all. He was so angry with me that I fall. I keep doing mistakes so I do not want to choose someone who would be angry with me every time I would do something wrong.

The ride on the horse would be amazing without Ben. But the thing which it would be redundant that is more injuries.

I do not know anything about riding a horse. So I can say that I would have trouble with that.

Otherwise, I talked to three of them. Ren. He is quite cute. He is kind. But sometimes he asks instead of comforting me. In that time I told him about the fight with Ben he asked about what happened. But at that time I would appreciate more hug or words like 'it is going to be okay'.

And then I do not like how he jumped to his conclusions. Prejudices.

The next one is Sian. He led me to my room. He was polite. That is all I can say now.

And the last one I talked to is Noor. Like I said he did not do anything to win me over. He tries to do anything so I would be safe. He is doing it for Rouka. For people.

I like this side of his. It is very different. 

When I was travelling in my mind someone touches my shoulder with the palm of his hand. I did not expect anything like this. So I was quite shocked so my reaction was not so welcoming. I look up and saw the one who was not in my previous list. Luca.

'It is not polite to look at me like that.' he says.

'I am sorry.' I say.

'I am not your brother.' he says.

'I know.' I reply.

'So call me prince instead of nothing. I am not some villager who is working so hard on some field.' he says.

'I know it, Luca.' I say.

'I am a prince!' he says.

'And I am a princess. It is just title get over it.' I say.

'You are not a princess. You are an ignorant small girl.' he tells me while he is looking into my eyes.

'So you would your daughter to learn things about policy, kingdom' s history or economics?' I ask.

'No. This is just for men to know.' he says.

'So do not call me ignorant! You would not approve of it.' I offend.

'Can you read or write?' he asks.

He silenced me.

'No. No, I cannot.' I say.

I was sad.

'I am not a liar unlike you. You are believing that you are not ignorant. I would not wonder if you believe that you can do something. Because I think that you are useless.' he says.

'If I am so useless why all five of you are trying so hard to marry me?' I ask.

'You are very dumb, stupid. Do you understand? S- T- U- P- I- D. It means that you are not capable understand things clever ones are talking about.' he explains like to someone who just born.

I wanted to cry so badly. I am very sensitive. I know that I am not good at many things. Sometimes I am taking me unconsciously under. But when I am in this situation with someone near me and that person keeps pushing me deeper. I can break in that abyss of the hopelessness of not being capable of being someone strong, someone who can read or write, someone who can fight, someone who can easily understand, someone who can do anything. At that moment I am falling. I am falling until someone or something catches me and sends me to the ground.

'Do you understand me? You are...' he starts but I cut him off:  'I know what it means to be stupid. ' I yell at him.

'You do not know how to act really. But back to your stupidity. Do you know why all five of us want to marry you?' he starts.

I shake my head.

'Because the one who marries you will earn the power.' he continues.

'Power?' I ask.

'You are so stupid I cannot help to be angry at you! The one who will marry you will be the next king after my father. King of Rouka. Your husband will rule over Rouka. Each of us wants to be a king so because of this we are fighting so much over you. I do not know what my brothers are thinking about you. But by me, you are worthless, stupid and most of all so ignorant small girl who does not know anything about her place in this world. Nope. She did not know even that world she is standing at! So dumb you are, dumbnora!' he yells at me.

I am already crying.

'Ohh someone is crying already. You are such crybaby.' he says.

I cannot bear more. It hurts so much. Because everything he told is the truth. 

Maybe nobody wants me in the end. The five of them wants me to marry me just for power. Why am I so stupid to believe in something else? That I am good enough for one of them.

'Stop crying, dumbnora!' he yells at me louder than before.

I am crying more. He got furious and he slaps my cheek hardly. I stop crying for a while and my hand touches the place which was slapped.

I look at him and before he can say something else I run of. I run off to the stairs. With tears streaming down my face I did not think about things around. So over five stairs, I tripped. My dress got ripped. I am so clumsy! Today.

I heard someone coming near to me. I get up and rush off to my room and closed the door.

I approach the bed and lie on it.

Luca is not an option. And if I am thinking about the other four, Ben is not optioned too.

So remains three. Noor, Sian and Ren.

One of them will be my husband. SOON.

End of chapter 5

TheLucy13