Blossoms on fire

Chapter 47

EDITED

Do not be afraid the story does not end by this chapter. There would be a few more.

See you early.

TheLucy13

Yesterday Noor and I returned from Rouka. It was dark. Both of us were going to our bed and fell asleep very quickly. We were so tired because the way was so long. Days passed. Noor learned me how to write and read I was so happy about it. Now I feel whole. Now I can do things I cannot do before, the things which limited me in the past how to express myself, how to find out more about things I was interested in.

Now I am sitting beside the table and writing a letter. Today I want to go to their grave. It was made straight away after the war. My mother and all my family. I missed them. It is not even a year from that day. But I let her know about how I am doing. Yes, it is strange to write a letter when she will not read it. But I believe that she can hear it. My voice tells her how I am through the words I wrote.

Yes, all of them were my family. But the one most loved by me, the most important for me, was my mother. She gave me a life, she stayed beside me no matter what. She made my day happier and happier. She picked me up when I fell. She was truly my mother. I loved her.

I dedicated this letter to her. To only her.

Dear mum,

I missed you so much from the day we saw each other for the last time. I regret that I did not enjoy this day that way if I knew that it would be the last. I survived. But days came and left. Sun rose and set. And then Rouka attacked us. I wanted to fight the soldiers. I tried. But in vain. They captivated me and wanted to kill me. But then came the eldest prince of Rouka. He let me alive and took me to Rouka. When I fell in love with Sian. I had to choose two or three sons of Rouka king. And then these chosen ones had to fight for being my future husband. Fate came into way of my love. Sian was defeated by Noor. And I had to marry him.  After a few days, I found out that he is a good king and a good husband. Everything went well, but he still wanted me in his bed. In his embrace. In the night. I did not want. So I agreed with his offer. That he would do this with another one girl.

It happened so much. I got kidnapped, I got almost killed. But he came and saved me. I did not expect all of this. Few days before we were on visiting his father. It did not go all well but still, he has a fine family. And I did not see Sian. I am happy but even sad about it. I asked Noor and he told me that SIan got Married to Kiana after half of the year after our saying goodbye.

As time went of I liked my husband more and more. I cannot describe how I feel now. It is so difficult to say.

When I see him I am smiling, I am happy that I met him. That I could see his eyes. he starts to smile. Every night we slept together. He embraces me with his arms. It is so warm, I feel so safe with him next to me. When he kisses me my mind saying more. I do not want him to stop. I never have regretted marrying him because of how he is. I regretted once because of me, I was captivated by ones who wanted to kill him. I did not want him to die. I regretted that he was connecting with me and wished so he did not save me and stayed at the palace because I am not worthy of his pain and death.

I think I love him. I love him like I never loved before. Sian is not in my whole heart anymore. He has just the one broken piece of it.

What do you think mum? Is this love?

See you soon, I cannot wait to write you another letter.

Your daughter

Leonora

I end writing and get up from the chair. Grab a letter and run to Noor.

Knock Knock.

'Noor.' I call him.

'Come in.' he says.

'May go to visit my mum's grave?' I ask.

'I will go with you.' he says and gets up.

He comes to me and then gets his arm around my waist.

Some minutes passed. We are here. We are standing in front of the grave.

I do one step more forward. And with the letter in the right hand. I say: 'Mum, this is my message from me. I hope you are doing fine. I miss you so much. Mum.'

I did more steps to grave and kneel. I made a little hole for the letter and put it there.

Then I fill the hole with the soil. And on the grave, I put the wreath of marguerites. And a bouquet, roses. She loved them the most.

I whisper: 'Answer me please.'

I bow and then I get up.

I come to the Noor and hug him with tears on my cheeks. He holds me tight.

'What did you whisper, love?' he asks.

'It is a question for my mum. Personal.' I say.

Then he kisses the tears on my cheeks.

'Noor.' I say.

'Let's sit for a while before we go home.' he says. I nod and we sit on the ground.

It was silence but I broke it.

'How does it go?' I ask.

'What, Lea?' He asks.

'Work.' I say.

'Quite good. But it will be better...' he says.

'Say, I want you to have the work easier.' I say.

'If you are with me, it would be better.' he says.

'You always say that I would disturb you if I sit next to you. You said that you would think about me.' I say.

'At night, with you in bed.' he says.

I remember from that revolt I did not do it with Noor so much. Maybe once.

'Noor...' I call him.

'You know...that I am...' I start.

'Once, we did it and you wanted it. ' he says.

'Can it be tomorrow?' I ask.

'What about as soon as we return to home?' he says.

'Yes.' I say quietly. I am not sure if I can do it tomorrow. I wanted to pass it now. And do not think about it so much. I liked him so much but this point is for me further than may thinks.

....

When we got home he lifts me and takes me to his bed. He starts easily with me. But I felt that he cannot wait so long.

He could not.

After that time I spent all with Noor. It was for hours. Then no one of us returns to work. We have something to dinner and we go sleep straight away.

End of chapter47

See ya.

The Lucy13