All for You.

Chapter 73 - Missing Him

Chapter 73 - Missing Him

— Tris

"Tobias, you have to go," I lock my eyes with his, hoping he understands my seriousness.

Josh has asked for him to go to the factions along with other leaders to be on the same page about what to do with the Bureau and their soldiers in our city.

The ultimate location of his trip of meetings is Amity and the fence, but his first stop would be at Candor until Peter is executed. Right now they are in the middle of his trials, among with two other suspects of the letters under West's name, but he already has been tried guilty and given the sentence to death.

Trials can last months, and this one has barely begun. And Tobias will be there the whole time, before moving onto the next Faction and whatever it might hold.
This means that he could be gone for months.

If things escalate, he might even have to travel to the Bureau with this pack of leaders.

"We have a two year old son who keeps growing, and I don't want to miss making memories with him and you, Tris." He tries to persuade me. "I want to stay here, make sure my family is safe. Tris, we have more on the line now other than you and me!"

"Which is why you have to go!" I remark, stopping pacing to stare at him. "Tobias, it's not a dangerous mission. You're just talking in meetings to try and keep peace. If you don't go, someone could say something wrong who went in your place, and a whole goddamn war could break out."

He's quiet for a second, our apartment still with regard to Indy's breathing. Thomas is with my parents today spending quality time. They came here for dinner last night and took Tom back to my old home with them. We're planned to pick him up after dinner tonight.

I knew we needed time alone without our son to talk about this.

"We can video chat, you could take the train back for a day or two when you get the chance. Tobias, we could make this work! Thomas and I will be fine, and—"

"There's other leaders that could go instead of me—"

"I already answered that, Tobias!" I snap, cutting him off.

We both are quiet again for a moment. I continue to pace across the living room as I hear him sigh. I don't even have to look to know he's running a hand through his hair.

Yeah, Tobias, I'm stubborn. You already know that.

"I know we've talked about having more kids," I hit him in a sore spot. "Getting a bigger place and growing old together, but like hell thats not going to happen if Bureau soldiers are here planning to tell us what to and not to do Tobias, I don't want to raise children and build a family in a world like this!" I feel tears brim my eyes.

Tobias has brought up several times having another baby before Tom's third birthday. He wants another kid so badly I know he would do just about anything for it.

And so would I.

I just want to know that we can keep what we have, the three of us, safe before we expand.
I would love another child, to grow my family with Tobias, but I don't want to selfishly put a child in this world just for it to suffer.

"All of the leaders are just as capable as me, Tris," he says, breaking my thoughts.

From his tone of voice, I know even he doesn't believe that. I give him a deathly glance, feeling my eyes mist as I keep my stare to his deep orbs.